Hey all,
I know some of you knew me, some maybe are new here, so don’t remember this angry lady. 
As you see from my nickname, which later was HyperactiveNectar, ((it took me a time to remember this one, strange)), I am lady from Lithuania, which had psychosis long time ago.
My psychosis was mainly drug induced (no drugs anymore, thankfully, many years sober, I smoked weed few times this year, but I am not addicted, just stupid mistakes I repeat sometimes.)
So, I am off meds for four months. I know it’s a short period, but I am doing good. They say first year is the most important, hmm 35% done!
I am continiuing my Master’s deggree. It’s analytical journalism studies, some subjects are harder, some easier (I had these filming lessons in front of camera, which were not super comfortable to me, but I’ve got a good grade from it, probably because I putted lots of effort)
Hmm, I love radio lessons! I love media psychology subject, also I love phillosophy of communication. TBH, I am not really into political subject we have, but the lecturer seems to be skipping many lessons, due to… reasons we, me and my coursefriends don’t know.
Overall, I am doing good. I am a good student. I started understanding myself better, well it’s time, I am 24 and I should have basic understanding about who I am. LOL
I started understanding I am a bit more intelligent that I thought. It’s a relief to me. I thought from time to time that some things are clearly impossible to me.
I also try to learn how to be less straightforward and try to… handle conflicts in a calm manner. 
I missed you guys. Many of you made an impact to my mental health, mostly the fact that it was not always easy to me. the breakup I had, the tons of conflicts with family members… I was coming here to lift my mood, my confidence up. Support I got here was big. I mean strange though, because my real life friends were sometimes not interested at all. Some unknown anonymous people around the globe helped me more than my real life friends.
I also enjoyed helping to you when you needed help. 
To add, I have more emotions while off meds. Sometimes it’s harder to control my anger or being so straightforward. I mean, I am learning some tehniques to think before saying, to calm down myself.
How are ya’ll?
Early Merry Christmas. HUGS
caff!! I’m really glad to see you’re back! 
ha the problem when someone changes the nickname, lol… I still remember when I chose the HyperactiveNectar and some people were like “WTF”
hello welcome back !
I am glad I came back. I hope I’ll succeed to communicate here in a more fluent way, and I’ll try to avoid conflicts which won’t bring a reasonable discussion.
