My dads funeral to Friday I have no way there. Not even sure If I want to go I’m afraid of my brother. He blames his terrible life on me. And lectures me that I need to get off my ass and get a job.
I also dont know if I can make it through the funeral itself. My dad was amazing and a troubled person. Now I have no connection. In the family having to do with my illness.
He was 56 both his parents died fairly young my dad is the youngest out of his brothers and sisters.
@anon54386108 and @everhopeful thank you. He was a great story teller that’s what I’m going to miss the most. He called me lead bottom for like a year.
Long story short I accidentally stabbed myself in the butt with a pencil. Technically i sat on it.
My brother was favored by our mom so he got away with everything. He was verbally and physically abusive towards our parents and I just felt it was because my brother thought he was superior to my sickly dad. I’m scared of my brother in all honesty
I’m so sorry this is even an issue. I think you should go, though. This is about you and your dad and your last chance to say goodbye. Just try to avoid your brother and try to stay calm and let him make an ass of himself if he tries anything.
I think you should try your best to go. But if it’s too much for you it might be best to make a special trip to visit his grave after the funeral to pay your respects. (Hugs) I’m sorry for your loss and I wish you peace in your time of grief.