I think there's only so far you can go with negative symptoms

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I’m on Abilify which is supposed to help negative symptoms better than a lot of other APs.

I’m stable. Haven’t been in hospital for 9 years. I can fake a lot of stuff, like short interactions with people . I can come across as normal.

But my heart isn’t in it. There’s no reward for doing anything. I feel like a bit of a robot :robot:. Albeit a functioning robot.

I think this is probably as good as it gets when negative symptoms are present.

A robot who fakes it , while under the hood feels like everything is a bit meaningless.

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What would you need to no longer feel like a robot do you want to stop taking meds?

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I’m completely off of APs and I still have monster negs.

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I feel the same way. In fact, im happy you wrote this post because it makes sense how youve described it. Its halfway between stronger APs and being insane due to psychosis.

I don’t think i have the willpower to ever return to socialising reguarlly or normally nor for full time work either. Which is sad, bc I wanted to enjoy life more than just family and my hometown, I wanted to travel a lot.

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No, I don’t want to come off meds. I actually felt worse off meds anyway.

But what I’m saying is, there’s only so far in recovery you can go with negative symptoms in my opinion. And I might have reached that limit/brick wall :brick:

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I don’t know I think you need something inspiring in your life maybe a woman Maybe a child Maybe something dramatic maybe new scientific approach

:person_shrugging:
No dont give up hope. No reason to believe in a brick wall.
:fist_left::facepunch:

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Yes, that’s a word I was looking for. Willpower. Everything I do seems to be based on willpower alone.

That’s not the case for someone without negative symptoms.

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I know EXACTLY what you’re describing. It’s as though you give your all, but you body doesn’t want to mature and continue anything on muscle memory.

It’s detmotivating

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Negative symptoms are kicking my butt

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Ever since I switched to Vraylar I have been playing pc games again. DOnt know if its related to the med switch or my desire to take my mind off things overcame my “mental block” about being able to enjoy them or what…but I have been playing pc games since the switch.

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I to struggle with this

And will power

It saddens me to hear this

Everything you post here has meaning to me

Do you love yourself?

When I love myself it really helps

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I really can relate to what you tell. I get negatives from my meds and illness as well.
My only advice to all of you to drag your self into the Super market two three times a week. Force yourself to prepare at least one meal a day with lots of vegetables and avoid any kinds of fast foods
And remember allway spend less than you own. Don’t go into debt because you should never spend today the income of tomorrow.

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