So yesterday morning I woke up FULL OF ENERGY. This never happens. I was just so happy and MOTIVATED. I felt like I had to do so many things, ideas kept coming in my head for things to do. I ended up baking FOUR CAKES, cleaning all 3 bathrooms, doing the dishes, doing 3 loads of laundry…
Today was more up and down, I got bursts of energy and then bursts of normal.
The scariest thing is that I can tell I’m becoming hypersexual. Thinking about sex constantly, doing things… Today I had sex with a stranger I met from Craigslist. This is the kind of behavior that got me ARRESTED a year ago.
I’ve also been driving really fast, smoking a lot more (cigarettes)…
The good news is my Abilify seems to be working, the voices are much better and I feel less paranoid. But I’m wondering if Abilify could be causing some of my bad decisions since I know it can cause compulsive gambling and sex.
I talked to my therapist about it today and she said it’s good that I have insight and recognize that I might be hypomanic but honestly I’M TERRIFIED! This hasn’t happened in over a year and the last time… I may still go to prison because of what I did the last time.
I don’t know what to do. What should I do?