I apologize for my dumb posts, chaotic posts, depressive posts, etc, that I’ve posted lately. I’ve been really unstable.
I was severely depressed on Thursday, last week, to the point I thought I was going to commit suicide. Every day is difficult to get through. I can hardly work at my job – I can’t focus, my brain is boggled and racing, the voices are being bothersome but not constant.
But yesterday I was feeling good. I wore a dress, even. I dressed up all nice and pretty. I got through work fine. I went home wanting to drink. I argued and was really irrational to my husband when he said I shouldn’t be drinking yet until I’m more stable. Of course, he got really upset by me being argumentative and disrespectful, so he left the apartment for a bit. Me, in my hypomanic brain, decided it was a good idea to walk to the train station, ride to the next stop in another city, then walk all the way to the closest shopping mall… At 8pm or so. I planned to sleep outside (WTF was I thinking) once the mall closed, cause I didn’t want to be alone at the apartment. I ended up getting back home safely, though - my husband picked me up.
I think I’m hypomanic again. I made an appointment with my primary/general doctor today. I hope he can help me get my new medicine by tonight. I don’t want to be so unstable all weekend. I also get a hormone implant (Nexplanon) in my arm today to help even out my crazy hormones. I get psychotic around my menstrual period, which I’m just now ending.
Thanks for putting up with my crap. Nobody has ever been mean to me yet, here, when I’m spewing nonsense. I appreciate the support I’ve gotten here. Thanks, guys and gals and in-betweens. You dudes rock.
hope youre doing well @Blossom you are a valued member of the community, we all go through struggles at times. hope you get the meds you need, if not perhaps a sedative tea can help if you cannot get medication over the weekend. Hops tea is sedative but you also wouldnt want it to interact with your medication.
did you have beer? maybe thats why you decided to drink although beer itself is not a good choice because the alcohol might make one unstable.
Sounds like a rough night. Im sorry youre having these symptoms. Unfortunately for bipolar and schizoaffective folk its a fact of life until you get on the right meds. Hope you got there! Just remember if youre feeling a little “too good” it can be a bad thing. Hang in there @Blossom, itll get better!
I hope so too. Going through the process of finding the right meds all while being psychotic is pure hell. Make sure you take care of yourself and get some rest this weekend, your health is more important than anything!
I hope you find the right meds for you, I was on invega before so I know how tough it can be. Maybe you’ll get used it after a while? Are you taking any other meds with it?
I’m taking Lamictal and Zoloft with it. I’m in the process of tapering down on Vraylar right now, too, while increasing the Invega. That’s probably increasing my fatigue, having 2 antipsychotics in my system at once. Eventually, I’ll move to the Invega shot and be off Vraylar completely.
I was on invega for a little while, and the sedating effect did go away for me. I ended up coming off of it for other reasons. Hope it works for you though!
I made an appointment with my primary/general doctor today. I hope he can help me get my new medicine by tonight. I don’t want to be so unstable all weekend. I also get a hormone implant (Nexplanon) in my arm today to help even out my crazy hormones. I get psychotic around my menstrual period, which I’m just now ending.
I definitely need to talk to my doctor. I next see my psych doc on July 9th, I think.
Eventually, I’ll move to the Invega shot and be off Vraylar completely.