from about 11am to 3pm. i had all this energy and everything was funny to me. i drove to town to get another pack of cigarettes, i smoked 2 packs yesterday and chain smoked them. on the drive i had this weird smile on my face and was all jittery even though i didn’t drink coffee.
anyways i also had some voices return, and recognized i may be getting a rare manic streak. so i turned off all my devices, stopped smoking, and layed on my couch until my heart rate slow downed, and my racing thoughts went away.
i didn’t recognize it when i was unmedicated. but it’s a lot different feeling from my normal day to day now that im on meds. usually the meds keep me mellow, not a lot of ups with so much energy anymore. it wouldn’t have been anything to me just 5 years ago.