so i am sitting in a cafe , outside, away from everyone, no problem…
i am sitting there, i see my self in my mind holding my head and screaming and then i start rocking to and thro…but this is in my head right…my wife reassures me it is in my head…i am tired of this ■■■■.
if my wife had not been there i swear i would not have have known whether i did it in reality or not .
this is normal for me, but i am tired today, if i had a gun i would blow my f…head off.
i have survived a long time without meds…
no replys needed just me ranting.