I remember a time it would of touched me but I don’t feel anything emotionally. I think I’m dumbed down from the Invega increase I’ve been having for 2 months now since getting out of hospital.
Is this normal not to feel anything? No sad emotions, no thinking back to my abusive childhood or time in foster care, the loss of my mother. Just numb.
Consider what happen if you have emotions? You might get irritable, angry and even violent if got bad emotions. Depressed thoughts might even lead to self murder. So this lack of emotions is a protective mechanism either by the mind or due to the medication to feel at least to not react to negative things.
I’m hyper sensitive but now that I’m on xeplion my emotions are dimmed down. Which is for the better I think. My only problem is that I can’t really concentrate any more. I like to read, but I have a hard time doing that now. I also dont listen to music anymore like i did before.
When I was on invega 150mg, I had this as well. People always thought I wasn’t expressing emotions on purpose. Though sometimes I would get an abnormal flood of emotions when trying to rest.
Since I have gotten on the internet and I have access to all the music I want I don’t get nearly as moved by a lot of songs like I used to. “This Magic Moment” by Jay and the Americans was really good to me, but now that I can listen to it as much as I like it not as moving. It’s like that with a lot of the other songs I like, too.