I realized this will never end. I don’t know what reality is or means. However what I experience is not invalid. It is beyond comprehension of understanding to others under how reality is supposedly advertised. So much so that they call it not real. M×th×r f××k×r…don’t tell me it’s not real. It happened. It happened to me, and that’s not not real. This is my reality and I don’t understand it in the slightest. People see friends. I see fiends. Will I play the game? Yeah. Am I good at it? Oddly so, yes.
Just been taking a long ass break because I needed to come to terms with the fact this will never end, not even in death (what a sweet, grandiose concept though) …and I’ll be forever loved, but never liked.