I overshared with my therapist. I wrote down the details of some really personal traumatic events and she asked to keep it to read. I let her but goddamn I regret that now. I know she’s gunna wanna talk about what I wrote. I just don’t know what she’s gunna say or what I’m gunna say. I really wanna cancel our appointment and hide from this. I won’t but I want to.
How does one deal with the anxiety leading up to my next session??
Be open about it. Tell them your feelings about being uncomfortable. They listen to problems all day so they understand if you don’t want to talk about it anymore. They won’t judge you.
Update: I’ve gone to group therapy today and discussed it. I will tell her I’m not comfortable discussing specifics yet as you all so kindly suggested here. Additionally my plan is to tell her pretty much exactly what I wrote here so we can focus on why it is that I am so anxious instead of what I actually wrote.
The group’s facilitator told me that that was a very honest feeling to have shared. I’m glad she said that because I have been trying to be more honest or real with myself in therapy. Not that I lie, but I often minimize and omit problems I’m facing. A step in the right direction.