paranoia these days for me is losing my home due to nosey residents i think all they can do though is have me sent to the hospital. I don’t give them a reason though. I don’t know. I’m not sure of it yet. Went the last time I lived here and would have come home to stay if we hadn’t sold. Aslo it’s being accused of being a criminal. I don’t know. There was a guy in tactical military speacial forces gear on my parents lawn years ago. and voices are accusatory. that and someone at the hospital slandered me horribly. they were as far off base as they could possibly be but it scared me.
other than that yes there’s intense anxiety with me it’s basically physical as well as mental. I don’t know. If I dont meet someone I’m going to go far below into an abyss than any good person should be alowed to go. only real people i talk to are over the phone. I didn’t have to worry before as I knew people in my neighborhood I spent time with.
My psychiatrist clarified things for me today during our session.
She feels that mainly my paranoia stems from anxiety and OCD but it also stems from bipolar disorder a bit too
Maybe you can re-frame it from paranoia to an irrational fear.
Its irrational because the probability is so low. You’ve been alive for more than 5 decades and it hasn’t happened yet.
I have been a little confused as to wether my day to day worries are more related to the sz disorder/paranoia or just mainly plain old anxiety. My pdoc thinks it could be lingering symptoms from the disorder. But im also currently seeing a therapist who is trying to work on my anxiety. Hopefully the therapy will be effective in some way. So i wonder, is the way to tell if its paranoia or anxiety, thinking people will harm you versus thinking people think your weird or whatever? Or along those lines? Hmm.
