I need to clean

im having a very hard time coping again. the motivation man what the ■■■■ its zero. i feel like the ability to put forth effort was surgically removed. its not lazy i feel my trying to clean met with a brick wall.

i make me want to try to clean but then when i go to think about it it hits hard stop in my head. its really uncomfortable


When I really struggled with the negs I’d make lists. Tick off what you do and try to be mobile. It can get easier by forcing yourself. One small step at a time.

Took me years and some age to get into some good space but fight for those little gains.