I am losing my girlfriend and am very poor. Have been poor for five months now. I am not ever going to stop taking my meds. but thanks for asking.
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Sorry that you are going through this again @jukebox, hope you can find something (that doesnāt cost money) that can bring you a bit of joy today. Maybe a day of listening to your favorite music? What would you listen to if you had your pick?
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You feel like crap. You just wanna feel something else but donāt know how right now. So youāre looking at things you can DO to feel better.
Just wait & be patient, thatās my advice. If you didnāt feel like crap right now I would be concerned for you.
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Maybe playing some banjo on the street corner? Is busking allowed where you live @jukebox? Might be a fun way to get some coffay mon-nay. 
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Yeah @jukebox, grab that hat and play up some favorites with a live audience, that sounds like fun.
I always give a few bucks to those that share their talent with with those who stop to listen, you never know what opportunities may cross your path.
ā¦and it sure beats being sad at home alone.
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That ^ above was my kitty cat that just jumped on my keyboard, think he was trying to say āget the banjo @jukebox, we wanna hear you play!ā
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Iām listening to the beach fossils right now on Spotify. peaceful and no memories to make me cry. I donāt have any of my instruments with me today so I just keep listening to Spotify. thank you dear friend. I miss you.
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I know exacte what You mean. When my psychosis was in a state of development I always felt really good inside. Like I understood very complicated stuff. As it progressed I gotta into a state where I was terrified and on edge. Now atm times I still get the euphoria when I canāt sleep and my mind starts acting funky. Sometimes I write down my ideas. When I read them later. The sense of euphoric insight I had when I write them down isnā't there animore. Sometimes they make sense. At other times it would be great for in a sciencefiction novel.
Sell your books for commission at an independent book seller.
Make your art, and enter into art fairs to sell your works, but make them reasonable, or
if that falls, get a permit to see downtown.
If you can sing, and play guitar, do it downtown, for cash. Get the local venues to take you in
for a cash payment, like at noon lunches, music clubs for the disabled, or concerts.
Put up fliers that you will work for cash, anything you are good at, it can be pet sitting/walking,
after school child care, lawn care, or house cleaning.
Go ask NAMI if you can get a paid position serving others with mental illness, or, start volunteering, then work your way in. Give speeches with admission costs.
Generate a group of friends through Meet-ups, in which you can plug your book.
Ask the local supermarket if you can have a brat stand they sponsor to raise funds for you.
Ask your family to have a dance event they sponsor to bring needed funds, and post it in the paper, on fliers, and through social media and emails.
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I canāt relate. I thought it was terrifying.
ah, what @jukebox needs to realize is that weāre all poor.
You can also try GoFundMe for a cause you want to take up.
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I miss the euphoria too, it was the best Iāve ever felt. I had energy, I was the happiest and most confident Iād ever been. I didnāt experience anything negative during my experience.
The reality is most of will be on meds for the rest of our lifeās. What you can do is therapy to help get to the minimal needed. The long term effects are unknown. The fact not doing it means most of us will build resistance to the meds needing more and more. It sucks I know having to make the sacrifice of even needing therapy but your not alone.
Youāre not alone on money. Iām on disability also. Paying for therapy on top on top of trying to live is extremely hard. Iām also a smoker and here the taxes are extreme. Iāve just ordered e-cigs and working out the saving I will have is like $430 a month (Iām not joking). Workout where you can save money thing and cut the stuff you really donāt need and save. Unlimited advice on the net for budging.
The girlfriend - Friends are seasonal sometimes itās the same for partners. I am sorry about the girlfriend.
Over all whatever your going through what ever you have been through someone has been or going through a lot worse. I started to do a lot better knowing that.
I hope your doing a lot better today. Hang in there dude it does get better.
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I was somewhat euphoric during my first episode. I thought that the brain study I was in had come to a close and I would be getting my enormous paycheck and going to my fancy home and being with all my family. The inserted thoughts told me I am one in millions and that I had done such a good service to all the world. I was the most intelligent and talented person in the world or in History. It was a āhighā day for me. What I DONāT miss is my suicide attempt and EXTREME paranoia that I am going to be sacrificed like Christ. I am still paranoid, always, but my meds help keep it to a functional level. The good doesnāt outweigh the bad. I take my meds everyday and they help keep me stable but I still worry about what ātheyā (the brain researchers) will do to me. Iām also poor (on disability) and I feel ya. Glad your sticking with the meds. Lotās of support and good tips on here. Hope you feel better.
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