It’s so nice to be back. I am aware that this clarity will not last so I’m setting up an action plan in case I lose my way.
I put a recording on my phone reminding me of the root of why I went psychotic in the first place.
The schizophrenia will never go away. But I am bettering myself by setting up better coping skills instead of looking to escape this.
I have reconnected with my therapist and trying to schedule an appointment for january. I believe in the mental health system, now.
I am not fond of meds, but I understand those who take them.
Edit: I will hospitalize myself and go back on meds if I can’t cope. This was a gradual process, not a sudden choice to stop taking them. I’d definitely be in the hospital. But please stay on your meds if they help you!
Yes reality can be difficult but I’m in a good place in my life. It is Monday and I’m sitting at my favorite coffee shop just listening to music and enjoying the sunshine. I’m loosing weight and quite socially normal right now so Im quite happy just sitting outside or talking to people. I go to day treatment, support groups, and exercise often and have a part time job and substitute teaching certification class and art class all possibilities coming up for me in the near future. I get invited out a lot. I feel hopeful that my future will be ok no matter how south my relationships go. The one strange thing is that my negative symptoms have been slowly disappearing and people can’t even normally tell I’m mentally ill anymore. I feel like a kid with a cold who still gets to stay home from school, but enjoy taking the day off without too much pain… I am lucky. But I take meds everyday. Reality is good. I realize the ■■■■ some people have to deal with despite taking meds but I’m a firm believer all can live a good life.