– I have totally lost my mind. And yet I can read a book and talk about it. You can train the mind to do Anything.
I went to the grocery store this morning and I swear I was close to exploding for the slightest provocation. I have been isolated for over 12 months, talking to no one in person. I torture myself at home relentlessly using the Alter Ego scenario. I am so desperate for company I am thinking of causing a public disturbance to get into jail. I have never been in jail but overnight once and something tells me if I had I wouldn’t consider it. I don’t want to lose my apartment because I got into trouble.
I’m going to the library today after lunch and see if being near people might help.
I have the same tendency to isolate myself. I’ve found that some of the times in my life that I have been the worst came after a prolonged period of near total isolation. I don’t need a great deal of human company, but I do need some. I have some compelled socializing at the assisted living center where I live, and that almost solves all my need for socialization. Maybe you should think about getting into an assisted living facility. It can help you out in a number of ways.
I felt better soon after writing this. It took a little while though. I think assisted living is for seniors here in the great USA and usually cost a lot. State run nursing homes are more prevalent and are for elderly. I was dissuaded from moving to a group home by this forum. I have to find another solution.
You go mad every once in awhile being alone all the time. Once you are truly alone you will be forever. I’m not sure if I would like other people’s company anymore. I would definitely be choosey.