But i believe i was sent here by a higher power to spread cheer and be a listener. I think that when i pray someone is listening and talking back to me. I dont go to church because i believe you find your own path.
Sorry if this is to religious. I can take it down if i need. I think part of my schizoaffective is believing im a saint. Its like deeply imbedded in me and i know its true. I dont know if its belief or just the dksease talking.
I thought I was pretty much saintly, and I wondered why my people didn’t recognize it. I understand better now what the definition of “saint” might be. If I’m so saintly, why can’t I sit for five minutes without having a selfish thought?
I thought God was giving me messages to deliver to others until I got put on APs. The APs made that go away which is how I know it wasn’t real. Other things didn’t go away so I feel like those things are real. It’s hard to tell what is real sometimes. So I reality check with others and try to respond to my thoughts and beliefs based on what others say
Sounds like grandiose delusion.
I’ve been guilty of that too.
I think just trying to be a better you every day should be enough to keep you busy. Let others decide if you’re saintly or not, lol.
I do feel I was put on this Earth to help others. Not in some grandiose way, but simply by being a good listener. And responding in kindness. I really don’t give a ■■■■if you call it a calling or whatever, it just is what it is
The belief of being a saint and/or being sent by a higher power is definitely not an uncommon SZ/SZA symptom. Let’s think about it logically for a moment! I can tell it’s something you feel very strongly about, but ask yourself what makes you think that exactly? Is it just this strong feeling you get of the universe trying to tell you that… like intuition? Or do you have a list of things you’ve done that support that belief? After all, I suppose a ”saint” can have a subjective definition to different people. In most cases, it’s this overwhelming “feeling” that convinces a person of it because even in their heart they ”desire” to be holy and completely selfless and will suffer in order to help other people… it is usually just lacking in deed. Just by thinking you are a saint might just disqualify you from being one, though!? After all, would a true saint even acknowledge themselves as one if being ”selfless” was a main attribute? I think it’s great to ”aspire” to be a saint, but it’s unlikely a true saint would apply the term to themselves, it’d be a term given to them by other people who have witnessed their deeds. Just my thoughts on it!
Exactly! But I wasn’t sure if by saying that it would be too suggestive? I didn’t want to give any ideas of how/when the term is applied, so I approached it logically from just the deed perspective.