Wait. What’s going to eat you?
The Sun Lol.
Some crap my grandma would say when you were “acting up”. It scared me for a while. So silly.
Wait did you post about this? Like saying you sent a story of your life and you were freaked out that it might freak her out or something?
But AWWWW I’m super duper happy for you. 
I wish you the absolute best. I’m smiling as I’m writing this. 
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Hahaha. The suns gonna eat ya.
I’ve never heard that. 
I love the sun though.
It makes me warm and tan.
And after a long day in it I get the best sleep.
Yeah I did lol. I was shocked when she responded back really nicely. Usually I scare girls off when I do stuff like that. But she told me some serious ■■■■. Took 12 days to respond…but she responded, and apologized for taking so long to respond. I said in the last message “If you don’t respond, I guess I’ll see you in the fall, if you do, I’ll be here” so I’m in a good place with her right now.
I’m going to school in Olympia, Washington, I told you I’m from the east coast (connecticut)…it seems girls from the west coast are really nicer than the east coast girls. And I get the impression from you that that old southern hospitality thing or whatever is true too 
Well I’m glad to hear she responded with such an awesome response. You know she really has to care about you if she took the time to tell you her life story. And trust you a lot too. I’m glad you’re in a good place. Just keep communicating until you see her. Or that’s what I would do.
And are west coast girls really nicer… Or just her? Haha don’t have a biased opinion here now. 
and you can tell I’m a southerner? Well thank ya. I consider that a compliment. I take pride I’m my southern ways.
What are you going to school for?
Sociology…I wanna be a social worker who specializes in mental health and substance abuse…but it’s a long road…but it keeps me on the straight and narrow knowing I can’t ■■■■ up if I wanna go in that field
maybe you’re right, but I really don’t like east coasters, that’s why im moving out west. She’s from San Fransisco and I find that to be a cool town with probably a lot of cool people, even though I’ve never been.
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See. Now I’m reverting back to why I posted this post. My dream was to be a sociology major. I’m not even kidding. You’re going out and making it happen. I can’t. I’m happy for you but I’m now upset and angry with myself.
I’m doing nothing with my life.
Even when I chose to do that in the first place my family was like nope you can’t do that. Too much schooling and its not a typical job, you need something like nursing. Nursing is in demand. Be a nurse. So I went for nursing and hated it and dropped out.
I’m always being told no. Gr
Yeah, the disease makes us a little insecure. But You may find someone who appreciates you for who you are and makes you feel better about yourself and eventually it might help you feel better about yourself without any help.
There’s no overnight cure for schizophrenia. We are all blundering through life the best we can but recovery takes time. The people you see on here who have a little modicum of success and who are stable did not get that way overnight.
It often takes years of taking meds, seeing a psychiatrist, and getting help and following what their parents and doctors suggest and just blindly stumbling along until somehow things get better.
Turningthepage mentions his life when he was your age. I’m the same way. When I was 22 I had just gotten out of an 8 m month stay in a hospital. I had really nothing going for me. I wasn’t in school, I had no job, no friends, no money. I had no plans for my future. I didn’t know what I was doing most of the time and my symptoms sucked. But slowly but surely I let people help me, I followed directions, I went through the programs offered day after day.
I’ve always felt like an outsider even with other people who suffer from mental illness. But somehow someone saw my potential and with a little luck and lots of hard work and doing things I hated to do but I did them anyway because I knew they would help me, I gradually got better. And I’m 55 and I’ve been working most of my life.
But when I was your age I was nothing special. I was shy and withdrawn and of course I suffered from this disease. I thought everybody was better than me too and I was intimidated by the cliques that formed in my living situation and the programs I went to. I’ve had friends but I’ve never been in a popular clique.
But from 19-22 I was just another schizophrenia patient watching other people get girlfriends and do stuff. I was a loner. Anyways, you have a chance to do good. I’ve seen miraculous comebacks from the people you would least expect it from. It’s OK to vent but at your age you still have potential. Good luck.
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Don’t let anyone tell you no. If I listened every time I said no I would never do anything! My therapist told her social worker when she was 16 that she wanted to be a social worker and her social worker told her “You won’t be able to do that”…guess what it did? It motivated her to be a social worker.
The best social workers are the ones who have first-hand experience with the issues they deal with IMO. That’s one of the main reasons why I think I’d be good at it.
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Thank you for sharing. You’ve inspired me. I’m glad to hear you recovered and moved on from the disease. Or you’ve figured out how to manage it. 22 is young, but its when I look around me and all I see is my friends (not even friends because I feel like I don’t have those anymore) are off getting married, graduating their dream college, getting their dream jobs, having kids, buying their first homes, I’m like … Wtf. ■■■■. Great. I’m just sitting here. Trying to think the correct way. While you’re out there making ■■■■ happen. I’m so jealous. Why couldn’t god put some good things in my cards. I shouldn’t think like this. But I’m just saying. Its hard. I wasn’t dealt an easy hand. I’m not complaining. I’m just venting.
I’m sure you’d be great at it. And I’m happy that you get to chase your dream. With a girl by your side… Your hopefully future girlfriend. He he
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Hi,
I did read the thread starter, and most of the posts, but not all.
My tip is to focus on self-accept. Get really good at it. I used to have a higher level of function, but i did not accept myself enough. Now I accept myself any form, any way any day! I think I am a great person, but I also think I deserve a high level of functioning and therefore I will work on improving myself.
Education is the road of classicism, to debt. I encourage you to find your natural skills (imagine the world, and all the things that needs to be done. where would you and your level of functioning, and your personality and your skills fit best in? immediately?)
If work is paid or volunteer does not matter for the value of your time and skills, it is all a system of balance and imbalance, and you want to feel like you contribute or that you make a difference. Getting a degree will not enable you to help people as much as -just - helping people will. Getting a degree doesn’t change your contribution. It prepares your for some kind of contribution. It contributes to a system where we value things in awful ways.
Better person practice one:
Foster a cat! Super easy, healthy and the cat needs you.
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