I just can’t deal with the people any more
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Are you sure?
Just don’t want you to regret your decision in a couple of weeks.
What’s your back-up plan? You could also continue working there until you have a new job.
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This was my last chance.
I only went for it because of the organisation
Turns out the people there are just as bad as the ones in the private sector. Not all of them, but the ones I have to deal with
The back up plans is benefits
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You can use a mood stabilizer tablets for stability. Please ask your pdoc.
And can you make ends meet on benefits?
I thought one of your motivations to work is because you can’t get by on benefits alone.
Maybe try your landscaping part-time again?
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I have been sat there popping diazepam for 8 weeks trying to steer the ship, and it ain’t working
It’s not particularly pleasant being set up to fail, and having voices in your head telling you everything you’re doing is ■■■■
Sometimes they say it’s good., but sarcastically and it pisses me off
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No is the short answer
It will take 9 months before I am eligible for them to pay the interest on my mortgage which means I could afford to live just about
Landscaping is never happening again.
This was the last shot at trying to do something
It’s a real disappointment to me, as I have tried to keep working for years
Since I lost a supportive job with a family friends company and much of family working there, it has never been the same since
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Yes, you are right. But I am working, in a govt job. It is very difficult to work. Me also have given resignation two times. But take return it (or filed without action). Its hard to find another job or business.
I think you still have options.
You have tried full-time work and that didn’t work out.
You could try working part-time.
You could go back studying.
You could volunteer.
I think you need a break and maybe you’ll feel different in a couple of months.
Good luck!
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Joker, maybe you could work from home. Less interaction with people might mean less stress for you.
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I do work from home. These people can be just as much asshats on video or voice as in person
Have not sent anything yet, but I have written this out several times now
Might give up on it for now and wait for my parents to come back from holiday
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Another option is to do your job in a way that is ok for you… if someone is an asshat on a video call then end the call, if you are not sure what to do then do it the best way you know how, etc. If your boss says that you can not hang up on people explain to them that you are not willing to let their attitudes affect your mental health. Make the system adjust to you or make them fire you…
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I don’t have any advice for you but I offer you lots of moral support.
No one can say you haven’t tried to work. You’ve had more than this attempt at it. That’s more than a lot of us can say. And when I tried it in 2020-2021, it was full time and then part time retail. Nowhere near as complicated as what you’re doing.
I would give it at least another week before submitting anything you can’t take back. But I know how much of a relief it can be to just write the letter. I did that several times before I admitted that I just couldn’t handle it. It gave me a reminder that I was ultimately in control of my decision, and gave me a release that I sorely needed.
I would definitely wait for your family to return. And for the Trintellix to kick in. I am still on a course to increase my Prozac. It helps a little more every time it gets raised. Give that med time to work before you make such a major decision.
Sending you big bear hugs if you want 'em, and it’s okay if not. I want to be here to support you, whatever your decision ends up being.
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I will do this, but 4 weeks is such a long time, and they added only a small dose of 5mg to stop any nausea in the beginning
Hope it works out for you @anon39736208 !! Fingers crossed
Thank you. It’s a tough one, but I will work it out
Just thought I should post about it, as it was very close to being an email I was going to send 
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This is right on shedule. You’ve noticed how you wobble on weekends by now?
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But I don’t know why? Is it because all I pretty much do is work and sleep during the week?
When it comes to the weekends, like this one for example, I become very much reflective about what has transpired during the week
This means I ruminate a lot and I get wound up
Just realised, I have not taken any PRN at the weekends?
Might point out also that this is the anniversary of the job I started in 2021, and I went off sick.
I started that job roughly the same time as this one in 2021, and it has been stressing me as well that I might not be able to make it past the post.
But @anon39736208 is right - I have to give that new med I am on a chance to work - but 2022 has had multiple drugs that were showing promise, and I have all but given up on a medication solution
Until then, I am pretty stuck with Diazepam and they way I am at the moment
They said this new drug should help with low mood as well as the anxiety
I really hope it works
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Good luck with the trintillix and trying to go ahead with the job. In Dutch we have this expression ‘moeilijk gaat ook’, which translates as ‘difficult also goes’ which means you can also do things that are difficult.
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Thanks @TheFountainPen - they started at too low a dose I think, but it has taken a while to get something sorted, and they know what they’re doing I hope.
Not an expression I think I have heard in English before
But yea, it’s more difficult by the people at the moment than it needs to be. I will give the manager a heads up again next week
Might just mention the things that I said in the other thread that @shutterbug explained thoughts on regarding them not helping me properly.
It’s better than giving up
Must try and persevere
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Second this. I know people have had to “sanity check” me discreetly at work but I’ve had to deal with that and smile during video calls etc. Work is generally tolerable but I’ve learnt from the past at reacting at work. Try not to react at work and deal with things offline or in a professional manner which I’m sure you’re doing.
My advice is just try and Keep going, but if it gets bad try and make them change the job to suit you, message your line manager in the most appropriate way that suits you and tell him the problems.
As a very very last resort, coast and do the bare minimum.
It’s hard with someone with psychosis to work, and then there’s the stigma from bosses and coworkers
Not this boss! There’s a family member of theirs with SZ, so they know exactly all about it
So I was lucky in that sense
But co-workers, not so sure
Don’t even know if they have been told
If they have this certainly won’t help the situation I don’t think
Thank you @anon82218445 & @Old_Man