How is it ok for me to broadcasted all over tv and the radio? How is it ok for the whole country to watch me on their phones. My babies are keeping me from being suicidal. Life is so tough.
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Judging from my own experience of psychosis, you are delusional and need an adjustment of meds. I’m sure Nobody is watching you.
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oh no, not again. We’ve told you before…about the only advice we can give you is to get a med adjustment and maybe some therapy. Maybe you need Clozapine or even to combine 2 or more drugs. Your current Ap’s obviously are not doing the trick. Have you talked to your pdoc about these delusions yet?
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Can you tell me about your experience?
So the medicine is going to stop the tv and everyone else from talking about me?
You struggle with this all the time. Do you tell your therapist or psychiatrist? The only thing I can think of is find some activity you like to distract yourself. During my relapse in 1989 I started going to a day treatment program. I was about 28 and it sounds like a kids program but there were about 5 or 6 of us and one or two counselors and we played charades or baked cookies or played ping pong, shot baskets out back on a court, played volleyball, had groups and lunch and breaks, did art projects etc. It didn’t cure me or turn my life around but it sure would have been a lot worse if I just sat home all day with nothing to do.
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It should. unless you are treatment resistant. You obviously are delusional. It’s not logical that you are being broadcast all over the radio and tv. There are no hidden cameras. It’s just plain old psychosis.
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@77nick77 @Bowens thanks guys. Maybe a day program would work. And I might add on another ap to go with the one I’m taking now. That should work.
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Yeah, I had this sort of thoughts broadcasting via radio around 2004 or 2005. I thought everyone on the radio was watching me and playing a game with me like the cat plays with a mouse. This sort of delusion went away after I took antipsychotics.
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That’s a good idea. Just keep trying things until you find something that works.
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I’m new to the forum, I thought I was the only one who has this delusion 
I deal with this every single day. I don’t take meds yet because I’m working on getting insurance, and I’ve been dealing with this particular delusion for months.
To me…what helps, is trying to turn this into an opportunity. I get super frustrated sometimes, to think I’m being watched and broadcasted. But what if I can be an example of mental strength and fortitude? What if I can be an example of not reacting negatively to hostility? What if I can give demonstrations on what it means to be a good person? Sure I lose privacy, and get embarrassed easily, but in a way it pushes me to be a better human being.
Then I remind myself I can’t possibly be being broadcasted. And I often go back and forth “Am I broadcasted? Am I not? What if I am? What if theres nothing I can do?”
I conclude with this:
Nothing and no one will steal my joy. Nothing and no one will rob me of my opportunity to live a fulfilled life. And people in the world endure far worse, such as starvation, terminal illness, tragedy, war, etc. I will not let my circumstances define me!
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Ok how do you think people are watching you? From where? And I agree with everything you said.
@anon52450205 it’s tough to say. Maybe from my glasses? Maybe my actual eyes? Maybe from something behind my ears? Perhaps my phone? I was afraid of my reflection for a long time because looking into my own eyes terrified me.
Sometimes my delusion goes as far as thinking it’s an alternate reality that is viewing me, and not the one we’re in.
Just, be careful, because it’s easy to get lost in this delusion. It feels so real…I hate the confusion. It’s not worth hurting oneself to find certainty on something that may not be real. As I slowly confronted my fear of looking into my eyes, which is still quite scary to me, I’ve become increasingly confident I’ve nothing to fear, though I’m still not convinced I’m not being watched.
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Yea I don’t know where my this camera would be implanted on me. I dont really wear my glasses. It couldn’t be in my eyes. And I think I have already gotten stuck with this delusion. Dont be afraid to look into your eyes. It’s all a delusion.
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@anon52450205 stay strong, and thanks for the mutual support. I’m glad you posted your concerns.
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Tonight is one of those nights. I’m trying to understand how is it ok to be broadcasted over the tv and radio and all over the country. I dont want to be broadcasted or people watching me on their phones. And I think people can hear my thoughts. Is this real? Honestly.
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Hugs 15characteerrrs…
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I do have a normal life. But then sometimes I feel paranoid and stuff.
Like I think I am in a causal loop/time loop and was a time traveler in a past life. So I’m sort of famous/infamous. I don’t like it at all and I don’t get any affirmation which is nice. I have nightmares from past lives that were real.
It’s nice to be a nobody and just be a schizophrenic.
I hate schizophrenic but it does provide a sense of relief.
My biggest fear besides dying is going back or looping back to 2013 and time resetting. It makes me think we live in a computer simulation that begins in 2012. It’s one of my fears and delusions. It could be more simple or more complicated…I don’t know.
It just seems like nothing is changing at all for me. Nothing. The universe isn’t. It’s totally predictable in some strange, small way. But in other ways it’s not.
It makes me think there are no more time travelers or the universe is a simulation or deterministic and everything has been done already.
John Titor is old news. It was something that was done a trillion or more lifetimes ago and is just stupid and tiring now. The mission was a success, but somehow the clone, next life, or doppleganger got affected and went to ‘hell’ and worse places than that many times over.
I don’t like my life and especially what I say and post, but it’s nice being a non-threatening, simple, and paranoid schizophrenic. Nobody believes you. People think you’re (me) crazy!
It’s funny sometimes. Maybe I’m just so sick and delusional I can’t tell the difference anymore.
Early on in my illness I thought I was being punished; punished by God, aliens, programmers, and by myself and even spiritually. Maybe it’s just rational science.
Even if there is some truth to my story, it doesn’t matter. There’s a lot of sick people out there that lust for power.
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Sorry to hear you are dealing with that. It’s good that you have insight and know that you are just ill.
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