I just shed a couple of tears for the first time in years. I feel relieved.
I put on some sad music and started thinking about what my life has become. 28 years old, mentally sick, no girlfriend, self destructive, no drivers license, failure to my family, ect… and I shocked myself and actually cried.
I’ve recently reduced my dose of Cipralex (AD) and Olanzapine (AP) I think this probably played a huge role in me finally crying.
Sometimes a good cry is needed.
You certainly carry yourself really well on this forum…cooler than the other side of the pillow…in my books.
Did it feel good in a way? I also have a lot of trouble feeling emotions or crying. Been a long time for me too. But its such a real and intense moment when it happens. A good release. Hope your med reductions go well for you.
It’s good that you feel relieved.
I usually only cry when I feel unstable, which I don’t enjoy.
This sounds weird, but good for you.
I also couldn’t cry on olanzapine. Even when I had to euthanize my beloved Maine Coon cat after kidney failure.
I felt sad, and it still haunts me that I didnt cry for him.
I would feel like i needed to cry, the tears just wouldn’t come.
When I saw the thread title, I was hoping it was yours. Not because I wish angst on you, but I know you’ve struggled with this, just like I did for so long.
(For the record, no problem crying on Risperidone! Lol, not that I am at all suggesting you switch meds).
I’m 40 and have gained some perspective now. I would’ve thought the same at your age.
Just remember, crying and realizing all that means your insight is coming back. It’s a good start for without insight you would lean towards delusions and such.
However, allow me to disagree on “failure to my family” part. We shouldn’t live up to other people’s expectations. We should find our own voice.
Big hug! 
@TheCanuk this is the point when you would benefit from a long term plan to fix what you can fix.
Even if you end up not fixing it, you will have hope for some time. And the best part… you will be at least halfway there.
I would vote @Andrey for the best quality posts on the forum. Lol.
This smells like a trap, I won’t fall for it.
There are many regulars here who post great stuff.
Everyone brings something unique to the table.
Tears should come if they are due but i agree that meds can supress our reactions to stress which could make us feel numb instead of emotional, I was on risperidone and i had bad effective bluntening which was horrible.
We need to feel like we are human but i don’t think we should think that bc we didn’t cry for one reason or the other we should be ashamed of ourselves.
Thanks for the positive words everyone.
I never cry. I was taught at an early age, crying is a weakness in a man, and all you get from it is extreme pain.
I started trying for my license at 16 and didn’t get it til I was around 32.
I failed and failed and cried and cried.
Voices of political people etc said they would make sure I never get my license nomatter how hard I work for it they will make sure I never get it.
My voices went away.thankfully after eight years or so.
In Sweden when i knew all the answers they changed questions and really stupid questions that were irrelevant.
I only got automatic license.
It’s one of the best things to happen to me but i don’t dare drive many places.
Maybe try with y automatic car.
Don’t give up.
You can do it.
Thanks for believing in me 
It’s good though, crying is. (Female here.) Do what you like, I think.
I don’t cry per se but certain genres of videos on YouTube will cause me to tear up. The videos titled
“This Will Restore Your Faith in Humanity” gets me every time. It’s people doing random acts of kindness for other people and sometimes animals. The videos also go under the names “Random Acts of Kindness.”
There’s these other videos called “What Would You Do”? (WWYD) that I feel stupid crying about but they make tears come out. It’s clips from a TV show that ran around 2007-2014 and the shows goes around to various restaurants and coffee houses around the U.S. and sets up some actors and hidden cameras in hypothetical situations and sees if anyone of the public will intervene or help. For example, the show set up an actor as a muslim teen working in a sandwich shop and set up another actor as a bigot customer who gives the muslim a hard time and acts racist towards him. The people standing around don’t know the two teens are actors and some of them stick up for the muslim teen and try to call the racist teen on his crap.
Or other examples I saw today was two college age actors drugging a girl actors drink at a bar with a date rape drug. Some people intervened and helped the girl. Or there were two gay marine actors getting hassled by a woman about being gay and some people stuck up for the soldiers. The different situations are often about people getting treated unfairly and strangers sticking up for them. I feel stupid but my eyes tear up whenever I watch these clips. I feel sad but I don’t really actually break down and cry but the tears come out for sure.
I am glad you’re happy
Was your utility bill lower than expected?
There is nothing wrong with a good bit of crying, but thinking you’re done for at the young age or 28 isn’t healthy. You’ve got a lot of living ahead of you.
