I think you may have tagged the wrong Anna, whoops. I was confused for a second haha
notmoses, I tried all the meds out there. its probably not the only solution for meā¦ I know schizophrenics for whom the meds are not always the answerā¦I donāt want to change them anymore, I tried them allā¦ I am not misdiagnosed alsoā¦ its just that that I was gave up when the despair came to me, so thatās a problemā¦ I am also hypersensible to meds.
take care
p.s. I go out today with my mom 
There are things about myself I really, really wish would go away. Try not to let what youāre feeling overwhelm you. Try to eek out a little corner of yourself that can stay positive. There are things you can enjoy - if nothing else, the view out a window. If the scenery out of that window is bad look out a different window. Try to keep at least a tiny spark of happiness inside you.
yeah,probably I should stay positive. I try but I am fed up really to explain that I have intellectual degradation. I ask my mom many times for some things, I can get lost out in the city because I feel fear and this makes me loosing my meansā¦ I am fed upof this intense panicā¦ I even try not to touch other people out there, I walk like a zombieā¦ there wasnāt an ap who helped me with that. only my benzo helps me but I cant take it foreverā¦ my intellect is really blocked for a lot of things, can this get better you think?
I went out today, I try to speak to people without carrying that they can see I have a problem(they stil are talking to me :)).
kisses and hugs 
You sound like me premedsā¦ I think you should speak to a psychiatristā¦ I was about 17 -18 when I was like that
I thought I was as boring as the walls and I didnāt have an imagination to do role-play like other people when the truth was I just hadnāt read Lord of the rings and I was obsessed that I didnāt have an imagination
I wasnāt spontaneous I didnāt laugh I just heard voices and thought they were real
Seek help because you can get better Iām almost completely fine for the last 10 years
Uhh, well. Since there are over 200 meds in the psych pharmacopea right now, thatās a remarkable achievement.
Hypersensivity to meds is usually a case-by-case, med-by-med situation, though one may be hypersensitive to entire classes of meds, which is rare.
Am I correct in assuming that you live outside the United States? Am I correct in assuming that you live outside western Europe? If so, the prescribing of medications in such locales tends to be āby the bookā and without sensitivity to the very issue of sensitivity you raise.
In the US and western Europe, more and more p-docs are learning from their continuing education programs that the notion of āone size fits allā and prescribing by the book may work for most patientsā¦ but not for all of them. I am myself a case in point: I take a dose of Seroquel quetiapine that would do very little for most people, but works great for me and my body and brain.
I had to learn enough about the physiology of my illness to discuss the matter with my prescribers over the years. ALL of them have gone along with me on taking a lower-than-by-the-book dose because they can observe to notice to recognize to acknowledge to accept that my body and brain do not require a āstandardā dose level to get the intended effects.
This is true for several others who regularly participate on this forum, btw.
clouddog, its my mom who is telling me that schizos and me are stupid. she says I am not interesting cause I donāt talk much. I talk more than before since I am on zyprexaā¦ but yes, I still donāt get a lot of the thingsā¦ I am too focused on myself.
notmoses, I am from eastern Europe. I take 10 mg of zyprexa which is not so much. above that, I lose my concentration and my vivacityā¦ take care
5 mgs is a āminimum therapeutic doseā in the US. Try 7.5 maybe?
@Sarad tells me that med availability is very narrow in eastern Europe. Based on what you have said (which is very limited, so I am qualifying my response here), if you can find your way to a doc who will get you on Abilify arapiprasole, you may get a better result. No certainties. One has to experiment, but owning to what you have said, that is the direction many docs in the US would go.
notmoses, I am on 10 mg of zyprexa since a month. my hope is that it will kick in 2, 3 months. cause for now I am really stressed outsideā¦ I reject invitations cause I am not sure that I wont scream out thereā¦I take the things on me, I avoir watching the peopleā¦ and as I said I tried all the aps out there- Geodon, abilify, solian, Seroquel, invega, clozapine, Haldol, fluanxol, chloprotixene plus some of the adsā¦ abilify makes me more anxious and I donāt sleep well. I think I should stay on zyprexa some moreā¦
Should kick much more quickly. Have you been stable enough to do any psychotherapy? Do they offer any of the CBTs there?
I donāt wanna go to therapys right now. I donāt have the money plus I spent the last 5 years seeing therapists and psychiatristsā¦
why not for the med, it took 6 months for Minnie to be stable?
I still had it today againā¦ its mostly in the evenings. its really a painfull state cause I feel my brain in these momentsā¦ and I feel afraid for my life(I watch Homeland for example with the bipolar CIA girl inside). probably I feel persecuted also without going outsideā¦ thatās it. if you can reassure me that this can go away eventually? itsucks to spent mylife between this 4 walls. but I go outside now everyday. tomorrow we go too outside with my mom :)ā¦
May I ask what those therapists did? My reason for doing so is that I am led to believe that they are still using some very archaic and useless ātherapiesā in eastern Europe.
Everyone is different. And that med may not have even been truly the ābestā one for @Minnii. (I donāt know.)
What I do know is that there are many different anti-P meds out there, and that one can try one after another (for about two months each, according to experienced prescribers) until one finds the best oneā¦ or best combination of two or more.