It’s possible with meds. It’s not guaranteed. But like both our usernames suggest, there’s always hope. But without meds there’s very little hope.
Get the insurance! 
Welcome to the forum @Stillhavehope.
I wonder, since you have problems being straight up speaking about your problems, could you write about them in a list or a journal and just hand over your writing to a psychiatrist?
I’m a big fan of writing problems down. It helps prompt you to speak about concerns. Sometimes I just hand my journal over to my psychiatrist and let him take the lead from there.
Just a thought. I hope you start to feel better soon.
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I agree with the people on here you need to keep trying with the meds. Maybe you will find one that works. There are lots. However the finances are a downer. Medicaid and disability have been suggested. Also maybe your state has doctors that will see you free of charge and pay for meds. I’m using something like that. Hopefully your hallucinations aren’t like mine were. You can get caught up in the hallucinations if you start controlling what they say. It is far better not to hear them at all. I hope you find an anti-psychotic that works for you.
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That is what I do.
Yes, I could definately do that. I’ve been thinking about doing so, I just have to fill out the medicaid application and wait to hopefully be accepted. I don’t know how long that will take. 
any advice for dealing and coping with this is the meantime?
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any advice for dealing and coping with this is the meantime?
So long as you don’t believe it’s real, that should put you in a better frame of mind. I believed it was real, and that could have been quite dangerous looking back.
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other people may be trying to control your reactions and that’s a bummer. Try to stay strong and in control.
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I just very recently, thank you to the support of the forum and my one friend, told my mother about everything going on. I’m going to a pdoc tomorrow… it’s a huge weight lifted off my shoulders… it was difficult for me to tell her, even tho I knew it would be easy and she’d be very helpful.
@anon84763962 told me to write everything out too, and I did that. I texted my mom and told her about the papers and let her read them, and let her take it all in on her own.
I write in a journal now, and I suggest doing that too.
I wish you luck. how old are you?
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I used to write 24/7. I’ve lost interest in that now, idk why. I’ve kinda lost interest in everything. I’m 22. I’ve been through this cycle before- my mom knows everything and so does my family. But everyone thinks I’ve gotten better and don’t need meds. They say I just went through severe depression and I’m in a better place now. It puts a lot of weight on my shoulders because now I feel like I HAVE to be okay. That my breakdown and struggle has passed and nobody wants to go through it again
I get that feeling like you have to be ok because the worst of it seems to have passed.
It puts a lot of pressure on doesn’t it?
The only advice I can give is to keep gently pushing and saying things aren’t ok.
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I’ve lost interest in everything too. writing has been hard and I don’t really write much, just kinda about my day. I haven’t written for a few days… but I try, and it does feel good doing it. I’m looking forward to having a journal full of my words.
you don’t have to be okay. everyone is not okay sometimes. I had my freak out earlier and everyone’s very supportive here, so even if you don’t write, don’t be afraid to vent to us!
I highly suggest writing down every symtom you have. all of them. everything you feel. it took me like a month and a half to write 4 pages of ■■■■, but I got it done and held onto it for a while, and eventually let my mom read it. I hope things work out for you.
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You’re experiencing symptoms of schizophrenia. The delusions are hard to get rid of but hopefully medication or talking to a psychiatrist or therapist might help.
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Why not try Abilify generic? Aripriprazole. It’s much cheaper.
Because I’m living with my great grandparents- to take care of them and what not. And they along with my family think I’ve overcome this whole mental illness thing… And I don’t want to bring it all back up again. They worry too hard and don’t really understand the whole mental health issues I deal with. So its just a lot of ■■■■ to deal with. I don’t want to give them any problems whatsoever … Once I get on my feet more (get a job again so I have my own money for the Dr and don’t have to use theirs) I’ll go privately I guess.
It sucks I have to be hush hush about it but I feel like I have to.
Did they recently come out with a generic abilify? I heard there wasn’t one back when I was looking for the right meds.
It’s been in Sweden for a year. It should have been longer in the States. Everything comes first in America before we get it here.
I could be wrong.
I can relate to what you’re saying. I keep thinking that people in towns a long way away from me can hear what I’m saying to people near me. It’s seemed to me that people a couple of states away from where I live are intensely involved in my life. It can be devilishly hard to get rid of these false perceptions. Keep working with your med’s. Maybe you can find one that works for you. Geodon and Seroquel are what works for me. Also, try to get out and circulate more. Try a little face to face communication. That might distract you from these thoughts.
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I feel like anyone can hear me whenever they want. I’m starting to feel like I just know when someone starts thinking about me. Idk. I’m currently not taking any meds because of the situation I’m in right now. In the past I’ve taken and tried about 5 or 6 different meds. And I make it a point to get out of the house and exercise daily. I run about a mile and walk about 2 miles. I try to stay outside most of the day. I am pretty bad with face to face communication only because I feel like I jump into people’s heads and they get annoyed and thrown off by it. Thanks for your response
It sounds like you could benefit from what have found to be curative, ie really frickin important in getting better.
You need insight. These thoughts you have, these feelings, these behaviors, they are part of a syndrome that I also have. I know myself well from the view of a particular part of science: psychology. Insight is knowing what is going on. It can make life so much easier…
I suggest you should seek therapy sessions with a psychologist. They will help, it is their job to help. Part of the way they help is teaching us what we have, what is happening, what we can do about it, and what to expect.
I started with this, and I got a degree in psychology and am now soon to begin a doctoral program. We can come a long way with help from professionals. I still go to therapy today. I probably will for the rest of my life, even when I finish the 5-6 years of graduate school and will be practicing myself.
There is a profession which is just for people in your situation, there are people who have just what you need…you need therapy. Clinical psychologists are empathetic professionals who go through as much education and training in psychology as physicians do in medicine.
To put this pain you feel in perspective…I started off on here not knowing what delusions were. Now I have a plaque for highest GPA in my department from college. You don’t have to study it so hard…you just need help from people who have studied it even harder than I have.
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With respect, you might not be in the best place to be deciding what your family thinks of you and your illness right now. I’m sure they want the best for you, and you’re not helping them by staying sick.