I’m not looking forward to this.
they’re gonna yell at me for smoking weed, I’m gonna {hopefully} nicely try and explain to them that I need it more than to just get high, they won’t give a ■■■■, they’ll tell me to quit and then give me meds to take on a daily basis that probably won’t work.
I doubt I’ll get a sz diagnosis, but we will see.
it’s at volunteers of America, I’ve had to stay there once over night and as far as I knew it was just some job to them. you don’t have to have any sort of degree… but I guess maybe I’ll be in a different part. get some nice sweet lady or man who understands and just wants to help me.
hahahaha. doubt it.
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Good luck eyeofra 
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I doubt they will yell at you, it’s your choice really, doctors can frown upon it, but they won’t yell at you.
Anyway, good luck 
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They used to encourage me to stop weed and they drug tested me cuz they were convinced my weed was laced but it only came up for pcp…
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Oops I mean thc
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one time when I was younger, my regular pdoc had just recently moved to Colorado and so I was trying to find a new one and I got this lady for one day, she tried hospitalizing me for smoking weed. me and my mom both freaked out.
she can’t even do that. she tried saying I have no choice, I flipped ■■■■ and still had to go get an evaluation done and after that was done the lady was like 'you don’t need to be here if you don’t want to be, and if your mom doesn’t want you to be’
I wasn’t forced in by the police or a counsellor or anything, nor was I being suicidal or threatening to hurt others.
but thank you!! I’m prettyyyy nervous.
Yeah, one bad experience can really ruin the next one. Try to go with an open mind, be honest about what you feel.
They’re going to ask you if you smoke weed, so be honest. Because the high can give sz like symptoms but it’s not sz. It’s one of my doubts about you, really, if what you feel it’s not just drug related and not an actual illness. So be honest, they can’t hospitalize you, it’s ridiculous and that woman was out of it. They can’t, really!
No need to be nervous, you’re on the right track by seeking help.
Write it all down on a list and just hand it over to the doc if you don’t feel comfortable talking about it.
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I will admit my symptoms are worse when I’m high…
but I’ve had issues with not knowing wtf is wrong with me since like freshman year, and on my 16th birthday my dad called the cops on me, I got in trouble and couldn’t smoke for a while at all. and I didn’t. this was also before I got sick with my stomach. but I still could tell things were wrong, I just didn’t know what.
I’m not sure how or when I came to the conclusion that it was sz, or something even related, but I did and now I’ve done a lot of research and it just makes sense to me…
I was always really aware since I was in middle school that I had schizophrenic family, and a big chance of getting it. also knew smoking would bring it on even worse. but it still didn’t click in my head that ‘maybe THATS what’s wrong with me’ until not too long ago
of course I could be wrong, and to be completely honest with you there are some days where I think ‘there’s no way I’m sz’ but then other days i just feel it, I don’t understand.
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Well, I think that if you are, you’re in the prodromal phase, and that’s wonderful you’re seeking help now, much better prognosis and you can lead a normal life with none or very few psychotic breaks.
It can be bipolar, the prognosis isn’t as good, it’s established that there’s at least 10 episodes per lifetime with bipolar disorder.
It can be a personality disorder (that’s what I actually think it is) and treatable, although annoying, but with therapy you can lead a great life.
And… it can be just hypocondria with drugs 
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@Sarad once said something about how she thought it could be borderline personality disorder. I didn’t know much about it until she said it so I looked it up and agreed as well.
there are 3 diagnosed schizophrenics in my family, and also my grandma who believes angels sing to her. I’m hoping to find out soon.
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I used to think I had narcissistic personality disorder, but even the girl who told me I was “perfect” who I blamed for triggering it in me I talked to last year and she said “I didn’t think you were a narcissist, strange you thought that”. My therapist says I’m not a narcissist and I’m definitely not anymore but I thought I was. She did diagnose me with avoidant PD once, but I think I grew out of it.
What PD do you think she has minnii? Borderline? Schizotypical?
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Schizotypical… All the paranoia about the government and all of that.
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see I always thought it was just my ‘hippiness’ being paranoid about the government! but there’s a lot more things I’m paranoid about too
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I have a distant cousin who has sz, and my dad was bipolar. I got a mix of both! Yay for me 
my family on both sides are just FILLED with mental illness
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My best friend smokes weed and closes all courtains, is very paranoid about the government and doesn’t have a mental illness. She thought she was bipolar once, went to a psychiatrist, he told her she probably just has a personality disorder.
Like I said, I’m not very worried about you, I’ve seen a lot of paranoia in my life and that doesn’t always mean mental illness. If you came here all psychotic and ■■■■, it would be another conversation. But you have good insight, good judgement, and you’re a teenager!
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My first cousin was sz really severe
Had 3 relatives with bi polar, much more with anxiety and depression
It does run in families
So does substance abuse…although that’s not AS severe in my family, only 2 relatives but they were REALLY bad, worse than me. My cousin loved pcp , heroin too and everything under the sun
My cousin is 2 years sober ftr, not dead
My great grandma died of alcoholism though
Just be honest @eyeofRa, that is my advice.
Also BPD and sz can go together ( its called co-morbid disorders).
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I’ve put a lot of thought into the insight aspect of it. IF I am sz, how tf am I so aware of everything?
and comparing it to the personality disorder, would I be more aware of my paranoia and be able to tell the difference?
I’ve seen a lot on here how people who do take meds still get their delusions but they’re able to tell that they’re delusions. I feel that’s the case with me but I’m not on meds. but still my life revolves around all of them, constantly picking at me on a daily basis, sometimes days are worse or better than others.
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