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I forgot what health was


#1

I think that i have forgotten what it was to be healthy and feel good.

Im forgetting all of those good things, they haven’t been there for so long.

It’s been a very shitty metamorphosis.


#2

I know that feeling my cpn said to me that the medication hasn’t really helped but it has I just don’t think I remember what it is to be healthy I’ve been I’ll and inflicted by voices and delusions so long I don’t know what it feels like to feel okay I don’t really get happy any more I’m going on a holiday in a month and I’m hoping it will rise old feelings I’ll be disappointed if I don’t feel some joy at the beautiful landscapes I’ll be seeing. I’m going to work on this maybe record when I have no voices and write down how I’m feeling on those days see if that will be my new version of okay.


#3

What amazes me is how much this body can take. I see empty carton after empty carton of cigarettes… pack after pack, empty. Piles and piles of it… and I still breathe. I still feel relatively healthy… I get on the stationary bike and I do my lap, and I feel as good as new. What is this thing capable of?