I have a relative moving in. She has been hard on my mental health in the past. I’m hoping it will be different and I feel bad for them but I don’t want to live with them. It’s really stressing me out. On top of it, I think I being gaslighted by my siblings. They are angry at me. I know why but I won’t say. It wasn’t done maliciously to hurt them though but they still hate me now. I have reasons to believe it that I know are true but I won’t say them here. Believe me, if you want or not. I feel like the stuff he says is to see how I will respond. I don’t trust any of them anymore. it’s really adding to my mental health problems. My hallucinations have been worse and it’s late at night and i can’t sleep. if I moved out I would need to be close to my mom. I can’t even afford anything around here. a studio goes for 1200. I would have to go further out and I’m scared too.
I might feel better in the morning. I was just talking about enjoying the present. but just a phone call today kept playing in my head along with my voices.
i’m starting to kind of think of suicide. i’m not suicidal and have no plan. But I feel really stressed. My family isn’t the lets sit down and discuss it kind of family. So there is no doing that.
If you were me what would you do. It would take a large portion of my income to pay rent. If i even qualified. and maybe my relativ3e will be different living with them. it might be for a long time… their a good person but i just don’t think living together is a good idea. It’s my mom’s house.
I ask that only people diagnosed with schizophrenia respond. i do need help but i’m not really sure what options i have. I feel like i have none.
If money is the problem it’s worth investigation. It’s not easy living with anyone. Family, friends it can all be problematic. It’s not easy but it sounds like it could work out better for you. That is the key. You make some allowances to get ahead in life and sometimes we don’t often have much choice in the matter.
I don’t know your circumstance but I’d recommend hanging in there if it works out cheaper for you. That is just me and others may think different!
living with her i definitely could save but my mental health which still isn’t the greatest might suffer. I could try to live with her for a year and save money maybe i could buy a cheap condo after that. I could see if she is different. I know she is uncomfortable moving in with us and says she doesn’t want to impose. .
My choice is difficult to you because I’m very social. If your not I feel your pain. Still. If it gets you ahead financially and I reckon any dealing with people is good for you then do it. You can’t say who is good or evil and that is the thing but still. You have to start somewhere so I’d say give it a go.
Getting out of your comfort zone can be beneficial but I appreciate your concerns and it’s ultimately up to you!
I"m going to start saving. well first pay off some debt than save. thanks rogue. I think i just got dark there for a little bit. sometimes i just need someone to talk too.