I feel so rejected everywhere but here

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i don’t know what I did to my fellow humans.

my mom’s caregivers are super nice to me and her.

my feelings are hurt from memories of people in my life I very much cared for rejecting me.

does this make sense? or am I rambling?

judy

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You’re always welcome here. A lot of us feel rejected by non-sz people.

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thanks crimby. I just feel like they do me a favor by being nice to me, like i’d be some kind of low-life or pitiful character.

it just isn’t even enough in terms of levels of respect.

here it is different. we’re all in it together. I just love it here.

judy

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And that non-sz people include our sibling and relatives.

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with family it seems to me it is a tragedy. because they often mean so so well for us and cannot handle it gently. and then the whole thing falls apart in a tragic way. that’s how i see it. judy

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I have some family members who outrageously want to cuff off with me. Their attitude has become very harsh to me like yelling for no reasons and shouting at the top of their voice when they have to speak to me and pretend they dont see me if we just get together. We used to have good relationship so I think I have often feel confused I want to get back our past relationships. Obviously that is not happening. I think i actually feel better when we stop seeing each other. What is helping me is to spend time with people who still loves me. To me it is a HUGE difference. I find out there are two kinds of people, one they don’t want you any more and they would do whatever to hurt you and insult you. It’s like I’m not a human to them anymore. The other kind still loves me and they would adjust the relationship to accomodate me. It takes time to find out who belongs to which group and it definitely worths it.

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I am sorry you have it so rough with your family.

maybe you have friends? I hope so. they fill the gap. judy

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I feel the exact same way. I actually constantly think about what specific things are wrong with me that makes people not like me. Maybe its that searching why people dont like me. Or well its not that they dont like me its that im kind of a ghost to everyone.

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I’m glad you are here!