Idk.
I think I have too high of expectations anymore and want everything to be “perfect”…
Which I need to learn to accept as not possible I guess.
I had so many plans and expectations while my mom’s visiting….
And I’m just left feeling… bummed you could say.
Maybe it’s the fight with the in law
Maybe it’s cause my mom will leave soon
Maybe it’s cause time is flying by too quick.
I don’t know.
Eh, anybody else feel like this?
The never being satisfied…
Yea i relate… Not perfect but… Close to perfect… So for me, I have kidney damage… Most scientific journals say its irreversible damage.
But the rare odd one says that it can improve.
I want them to be perfect again.
Kidney damage is also associated with sped up aging…
I do not accept that my kidneys can’t recover 100 percent, until I’ve tried for a long while to no avail…
I don’t.
I feel overwhelmed daily.
Getting through the day makes me feel satisfied. Cleaning has helped me a lot.
Putting in some effort in organizing and making my room nicer with some art.
Dang. How bad is the damage??
Sorry to hear 
Abilify+alcohol made my dick numb for a while which was making me scared and depressed. It represented loss of desire in general for me. I think it was my dopamine levels.
Anyway drinking wayyy less and I’m back to normal! So I would say hang in there things can always improve.
In your case maybe it’s chemical or maybe you just need to find some joy.
Yea. It’s like 1 unit away from chronic kidney damage which is when it gets really serious…
That was last August… Since then… I dunoo how much worse if may have got…
Lol fun…
You seem like your under a lot of stressful things rn maybe that’s it.
Woah… @Zoe
Very sorry to hear….
Possibly, yeah…
That could be it maybe.
Hopefully soon we will have regenerative medicine @Zoe
Thanks!
That’s good you’re drinking less 
Thank you Madame!!!
I think you need more supportive ppl around you.
You have schizophrenia and are raising a beautiful baby girl…
It’s so much to be proud of and more x
Thank you… @Zoe
Yeah. Lots of people around me don’t take into consideration that I have a mental illness and don’t know how it affects me…
But it’s alright lol
I experience the same thing…it is like I am just a normal person without symptoms and so I get treated like I made life decisions to arrive where I’m at instead of finding myself here because of the illness…
sounds like blues related to the fight to me…life is hard enough without fighting.
Damn . That’s rough Zoe. Hope your life can still be Happy 
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Idk human but you’ll figure it out! I feel like there are a lot of factors that go into why we feel some kinda way. But your gonna be fine 
Thankyou so much @anon31960475