I failed again

Addiction sucks. I drank again, three times since December. I was keeping quiet about it, but I don’t like hiding and lying about things that are important for my recovery.

Honestly, I think it’s that one person’s influence that is not helping my progress. I keep doing it because I feel like crap, and I mostly only feel like crap around her.

So, I drank once in May, once in June and last weekend. Only sips, just to satisfy, not a whole glass of wine. And that’s that. I’m not drinking again.

Sorry guys, drugs were easier to quit.

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small sips doesn’t could…be careful u might ended up drinking whole bottle…
try to be strong…i know ur a strong individual…
take care …
no worry…
life moves on…

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Yea, moderate consumption of alcohol doesn’t count. Don’t beat yourself up Minnii, you’re doing great!

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We can do it, Minnii! We’re strong enough to get through this. :slight_smile: Good luck!

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Yeah bad influences a why I relapsed in February. I blocked those people out of my life now so I hope that and aa puts me over the top.

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No need to apologise @Minnii. As Robert Burns says:

“Then gently scan your brother
man,
still gentler sister woman, though they may gang
a kennin wrang, to step aside is human”

Hugs going your way :nerd_face:

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Good you admit it in aa we say “you’re as sick as your secrets”. "Honesty is the best policy ". I can bore you with slogans all night but I won’t

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Thanks guys, you’re all so supportive and wonderful! :heart:

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Don’t think of it as failure, just setbacks. When you slip, it doesn’t erase the sobriety before it. Don’t look at a sip of wine as some sort of all-or-nothing thing that sends you right back to the beginning and erases all your progress. It’s just a slip. Learn from it and move forward!

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Thank you, you’re right, I’m not drinking a whole bottle and I have wiskey in the house and haven’t touched it, although it’s tempting. I know I quit hard drugs and light drugs and alcohol all at once, and I’m due a few set backs, it’s not that of bigger deal. Thank you.

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Props to you for only doing sips. I could never limit myself to sips. I think the true alcoholic has a hard time limiting to such moderate consumption typically? But if your goal is sobriety, your goal is sobriety.

I get tipsy with one sip, with three sips I feel my head lighter. Then I’m afraid of relapse and I stop. Honestly, not to be mean or anything, but the thought of some drunk posters here always comes to mind and I can stop myself before that stage.

My book cites

The social or occasional drinker
Problem drinker/user
Abuser
And
The alcoholic/addict

I consider myself an abuser

I think in this stage in your life you fall under social drinker and your philosophy is that of the problem drinker…although you don’t act on it, the social drinker goes months without THINKING of it.

Don’t mean to label you, but your actions are that of the least severe. Just don’t fall back in that rabbit hole of more severe forms…or else it’s a tough task to get out

It is not a failure because it is only once in awhile. But it is good that you keep an eye on it. :wine_glass: = :no_entry_sign:

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I only do sips mostly because my mom is in the house and she would notice the bottle missing, or if I had a full glass. I’m very strong in social situations, since December. But since I live with my mom, I doubt I’ll have the opportunity to drink more than a sip when noone’s watching.

I think about it every day, so I might fit between the social and the problem right now.

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@Minnii. If you kept it secret and/or didn’t care, that would be the failure. You didn’t fail. You tempted yourself and overcame by not continuing to drink. You’re amazing, and I mean that. :heart:️ You’re on the road of recovery and traveling well!

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Thank you @Hedgehog :heart:

Yeah minnii my first aa meeting was 6 years ago probably today.

Some guy said to me “no one ever gets it the first time”.

I found that encouraging

You’re doing better than me that’s fo sho

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That is encouraging :relaxed:

@anon9798425, read this! :slight_smile:

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It’s ok @Minnii try not to be so hard on yourself, keep moving forward.

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