I am taking olanzapine and I feel very bad;
I feel possibly even worse than when I was off meds.
I can’t go on like this anymore.
Perhaps I should quit this olanzapine because it is driving me
toward suicide.
Perhaps I should quit because I can’t continue.
I feel I might do suicide because I have no choice;
My disease is intractable and has no cure;
At a certain point it might just be too much for me;
I live under terrible pressure all the time;
have patience brother.
It is never easy Chess24. You have to be strong. You may need an antidepressant.
I tried many many meds before the Rexulti I take know. I was even afraid that had stopped working but it helps now.
You’re a very young man, Erez. Chances are good you’ll find something that will give you some relief.
Please choose life. You have a lot to contribute to the world, @Chess24.
i agree with fry try an antidepressant
Talk with your pdoc, you can try some other aps. Maybe you’ll find the right one. 
Don’t give up, we all love you and you are also a good chess player.
I tried to kill myself after 2 weeks being on Olanzapine, horrible stuff.
How long have you been on your current dose? Are you on any other meds? If you’re actually considering suicide you need to get yourself to the hospital ASAP.
GO TO HOSPITAL! PRONTO.
if I lived in the same town as you, I would come get you
@Chess24 - you’re posts are an inspiration - please keep posting.
@roxanna is right - can you go to the hospital now?
Do your parents know how you’re feeling right now?
Sorry for yelling.
Please live @Chess24. You are so important to everyone here and everywhere. I am sending you my love. Don’t give up.
It is exactly 10 years since I have come off Olanzapine.
Fluoxetine works nicely with Olanzapine and makes it more tolerable.
Abilify and Geodon are more modern antipsychotics and may be worth talking to your pdoc about.
I’d say abilify before geodon.
Hang in there good buddy @Chess24
You have tried a grand total of 1 antipsychotic.
It may not be perfect, but you did have a response to it, so that is good, you probably don’t have treatment refractory sz.
Go to your doctor, or to the hospital if you may commit suicide, and try another med, or an add-on if the current one is not doing enough.
I’m sorry you’re feeling this way, and I hope you get help! As somebody who is suicidal quite often, I learned that it’s totally okay to live for something small. I’ve talked myself out of suicide for my pets, for Halloween, and for watching the rest of game of thrones. Hope this can help someone else as well.
Please don’t kill yourself @Chess24. Go to the ER or call 911. Please. We don’t want to lose you. Think, who will take care of Don Juan? Your cat needs you.
@Anonaccount I don’t have a cat!
@Jonnybegood has the cat Don Juan I believe.