I am no longer feeling like a person who has feelings and beliefs that are same as others what they have. I am feeling less human. I am not able to live like this for long.
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Hugs @Melomaniac, itâll pass!
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What is the reason for this mate? May I know?
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I am not able to dig deep into the feelings and emotions⌠I am very superficial⌠I am not able to thinkâŚ
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I understand you. I feel much the same. Seem to be lacking complete connections with everyone I meet - they just donât seem to see what I see, as a whole and with isolated concepts.
At times itâs a lonely feeling, but at other times I feel blessed in a way. Sometimes I wish for a simple mind like others. But âcosmicâ knowledge is cool, and consequently, it evaporates my (our?) humanity.
Hope youâre alright.
Taking anti-psychotics does that ⌠donât worry we all here most of us have the same feeling⌠thatâs just the way it is⌠youâll get used to it then you will find some peace. How long have you been on anti-psychotics?
I have been on APs for more than 8 months. I dont see any improvement. All i see is my mind not working properly.
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Mate thatâs just the beginning. Give it some time your body will adjust to it⌠thatâs how we all have been doing⌠trust me you are no different than others on here. We are all on the same boat and will sail through. Just be patient mate.
Hang in there, eight months is not long, just keep communicating with your doctor. He might switch you at some point to something else. Takes time.
Being human can start with yourself. Treat yourself as human.The fact is that you are human. itâs how you act that counts. Do nice things and treat people as kind as you can and maybe help someone and that will make you human enough. Dig through your past and think of the times you treated someone fairly or honestly. Think of all the good positive stuff youâve done in your life(because everybody has done something positive) and internalize it. I have had millions of delusions, weird thoughts, bizarre unexplainable beliefs but I feel like I fit right in!!
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I know because I have had delusions it made me question my thoughts in general, felt insecure about my ability to perceive accurately, thus felt less than human. I find it most helpful to bounce thoughts off others to see if my thoughts are ok. But yeah I do have these insecure moments, just something I need to work on.
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You are very new if you have been on ap for 8 months. It takes about 2 years to get used to ap.
Best thing is to ignore all the thoughts about what you pick up about the changes. And just be active. Your life is gonna change completly. You need to get usedusthe to the ânew wayâ.
The numbness is gonna be the new you. And its gonna get comfortable for you. You wount remember the old emotional self and you are gonna feel that you were numb since the day you were born. And its not gonna bother you.
Thats how it was for me.
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I also feel this way perhaps due to past trauma but as one poster said your life is going to be different now as youâll need to adapt. Are you seeing a therapist to work through some of these thoughts?
Thanks for this. This seems little positive of all the comments i have heard so far. I am doing circles about why i am the way i am and not able to get satisfied with the answers. But your answer seems practical.
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I am seeing a Pdoc who is also my therapist. He seems to answer all my questions. But i am not able to get satisfied with the answers he has given me so far. But i believe in him that i will get well eventually.
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