I realized that people don’t want to talk to me unless I lie about who I am.
I go through that experience too, I have so many faces for other people, that the real me gets squashed. I only feel settled in myself when I am meditating, other than that, I feel a complete fake to everyone. But only because they aren’t interested in the real me, I feel i’d be completely alone if I didn’t lie.
I don’t have any advice, but i’m sorry you were so upset and I hope you can feel slightly more positive soon, the only opinion in your life that matters is your own. It’s incredibly hard but maybe start by writing what you want people to know? It helps to lay it out and then maybe you can work towards sharing?
I hear where you are coming from though and I hope you feel more positive soon.
1 Like
I think that people who are not willing to deal with you are not worth your attention.
I deal with religious people, high functioning with large families, they know all my defects and still I feel
they appreciate me and value me, and they know everything about my dysfunction.
If people are not willing to deal with invalids, I wish them to be invalids for a couple of years,
I wish that they be completely dysfunctional for several years, I would like them to learn the hard way,
this is what I would do if I were god.
Stay away from people who don’t accept you the way you are @sirBoring
1 Like
I don’t tell everyone all about myself, that’s true for anyone, but I’m just myself otherwise. I don’t have the energy to lie, and it’s not worth the effort. Why should I change who I am? For what? To talk about what other people want to talk about?
No one’s company is worth self-betrayal.
If you yourself don’t like who you are, put the effort in to making changes.
3 Likes
don’t shed tears over the personification you use to interact with others… I like you for you… your witty funny a gentleman and a poet… if people don’t like those things they are the ones missing out on a wonderful person… but I too must personify to interact with a lot of people… its just a defense and a way to safely navigate the normie world… im sorry my friend…
4 Likes
This is sad.
Clown
a comic entertainer, especially one in a circus, wearing a traditional costume and exaggerated makeup.
I too entertain others on the stage, but once I remove my makeup, I cry just like you.
2 Likes
thanks guys. I think I’ve just been chatting with the wrong people, lately.
bro and I stopped talking. he was my only real-life guy to talk to.
2 Likes