None of my friends are available, and my online friends are all offline.
I feel really lonely and isolated today. I want to cry, but I canāt due to the meds.
I could really use someone to talk to. I feel abandoned and shitty and unloved.
I feel like I deserve it. Iām probably a shittier person than I let myself believe.
I had a fun time last night, talked to some friends online and had some good laughs, but today, today I feel like the world is against me.
Sorry, I donāt want to keep unloading all my crap on you guys. Just airing some thoughts I suppose.
It might also have something to do with the fact that my best friend abandoned me for wanting āme timeā, so now I feel guilty for having it and I miss him despite people telling me heās not good for me.
Sorry to hear that youāre going through this. There is nothing wrong with wanting āme timeā and i think your friend was wrong to cut you off like that. Hang in there, though. Better times will come. Just take it a day at a time. Youāre not a bad person. We all have our quirks but you seem like a likable and interesting person. Cheer up!