I read posts by people here and think I’ve never been as ill as that . For sure there’s been some funny thoughts like entertaining the possibility of having female sexual parts and thinking if I try hard enough I can have female orgasms, sensing presence in my flat though there is no way anyone can get in apart from my stepdaughter unless I let them in,hearing what sounds like voices when the toilet flushes, false memories, paranoid thinking ,reduced rationality under stress,imagining inanimate objects are going to start talking to me, but a complete break from reality ?! I’ve never thought I lost it completely.
Still would they put me on a depot if there was no psychotic thinking is the big question?
I guess this is an issue for quite a lot of us here. I have my depot regularly(100% since being here as someone comes to the flat and 95-96% at my old address) but the questions of “Is it really needed?” “Am I just dysfunctional and not really ill?” constantly buzz through my brain.
Perhaps though this points to the experience of psychosis being on a spectrum.
Hey mate. It’s spectrum for sure. I know I’ve been a stick in the mud but I’m a learning.
I think psychosis is delusions and your in the realms with your symptoms. I’m no doctor and I know you’ve been diagnosed schiz before. I know in the past I’ve been critical but there’s always someone who fly’s under the radar!
I guess it’s atypical but that pretty well explains it all. I reckon 90% of the time you see it pretty easy but you’ve taught me some things over the years…Full blown psychosis and it’s symptoms are pretty easy to spot. If your in a different system set that is different but it doesn’t necessarily mean you don’t need antipsychotics.
For example. My ex wife who I always thought was lo bi polar is doing great on seroquel. If you need a med that isn’t a bad thing even if you don’t get pigeon holed to diagnosis.
Saying that. It’s not you but some people who come here are just so out of the loop it’s so obvious! That I have a problem with…peace, love and respect!
Yes-my risk history mentions delusions. I’m guessing ‘Do I need the meds’/‘I don’t need the meds’ is a fairly common thought process .
There are the negative symptoms such as lack of drive and motivation, difficulties when it comes to showing initiative . How much is it depression or not? Then of course the social issues- autistic like or schizophrenia like ?
This was part of an email I made to the late Dugal Adair in Nov 2009 (6 months after starting the Consta).
Had my injection today.My care co ordinator who usually gives me my injection thinks i might need to see my consultant again. I explained to her that although the injection helps me to be less paranoid and prone to weird thoughts it
doesn’t do much for my lack of motivation- that sometimes i don’t dressed for several days at a time and don’t like going out of my flat much.
She thinks i might be depressed.I told her i don’t feel as though i’m depressed,that i either feel too little ie blah/grey or feel too much
ie negative emotions.
When i explained further(that the lack of motivation/not wanting to get dressed etc had been going on for quite a while) she said the lack of motivation sounds like a chronic rather than acute problem and could be a negative symptom of my illness.