i can sense everyone who can see my filth

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i am haunted by something unforgivable i did as a young child. besides this, there are thousands of disgusting thing’s about myself. i sense in every relationship i have had that has ended is my fault. i sense every crack and misstep in it, and it must be me who caused it to end so horribly. i have magic that can sense who knows about my filth and wrongdoing’s. every time i walk by a person, i can tell that they know. it is kinda like how metal detector’s can detect metal, i know when they know everything about me, and i can tell they are disgusted and know i am sinful, evil and deserving of death. i know they will not tell me for some reason, but i am aware they know everything about me when i look at them, and i can never fix what i have done. it is hard for me to be around people or be open because they are already reading my mind and past and future and can tell, but they will not tell me, and it frighten’s me.

sometime’s i think to myself that maybe death is the only way to repair this vessel of destruction, and will be a key in fixing this broken world.

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You sound like you can use some extra help.

Do you get support from a psychiatrist or therapist?

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That’s what’s it’s like living in communities everybody talks so everyone knows things about everyone else.

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I think is called mental broadcasting or something.

Please visit your nearest psychiatrist.

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Welcome to the forum :smiley::smiley::smiley:

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I have been dealing with this for over 30 years. And now it is getting very much better. For me this is all schizophrenia.

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Welcome to the forum @moira

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Do t forget to be there for yourself and be kind to yourself. Life is hard …we make mistakes …all you can do is try to live in the moment. Past is the past

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Sorry to hear about your situation it sounds mad difficult but where there’s a will, there’s a way.

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I feel the same way you do. I take the meds it has helped a little but I still feel ppl know my wrong doings. I believe it is a delusion or something. I just quit caring what other’s think.

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I honestly know nothing about you except that you sound as delusional as the rest of us. LOL. Welcome to the community!

:blush:

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This reminds me of 1 of my experiences in 2016 during psychosis.
I thought that everyone was uploading an app on their phone which was a camera video into my past behaviour and all my mistakes in life.

I felt so overwhelmed I slouched onto the floor by my local bus stop.

And I was crying and shouting I’m sorry to the public.

I remember, one lady didn’t give me that crazy person look and instead she offered me a pack of tissues :ok_hand:

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