After years of trying to be perfect which is an insurmountable goal because whats perfect to one person is not perfect to another. And trying to be perfect is imperfection in its own. But I have an IDEA of what perfect is. And that’s what I was trying to achieve the 6 1/2 years of being the chosen one. I now can just be MYSELF. I don’t need to attempt to be perfect and please EVERYBODY anymore. I said something slightly prejudiced earlier which i’m not PROUD of per say, but it felt good to say what I really believed even if some people would’ve got offended. Don’t think I’ve said offensive things in real life for a long time. Which in a way is a good thing. But No I was in slavery to this think. And I am free now. And I can be myself. And man does it feel good!
I don’t know what you said earlier…
You are not the chosen one… you will be for a girl I guess one day 
Just chill and be happy… Imperfection is beauty… madness is genius … you know it!
Marilyn Monroe was cool I thought.
why, she is not cool anymore?
No she still is but may god rest her soul. Oh btw I didn’t say anything on the board earlier prejudiced really, it was to my mom and dad I said something slightly prejudice. I’m not a bigot but my gay friend has been bothering me lately. That’s all I’ll say and what I said was kind of misunderstanding of where he’s coming from. But it felt good to say after never being able to be myself in my entire life. PS I said nothing bad about gay people in general its just a certain thing that some (the minority of) gay ppl do that annoyed me.
yeah some thing I told my friend the other day… that I practice and she doesn’t is keep certain opinions private. People do not need to know most of it. Like she was talking to my religious friend who prays to saints… and she kept saying I do not like the church this and that… even to her mom who is a traditional 70 year old lady. I told her, I agree with you about the church but I do not say my opinion to her. This is a good technique to avoid problems and have a more peaceful life.
Most of the time we say things in a moment of anger or frustration which is not even true.
Why is this an unusual belief ??
Being oneself should be everybody’s aim.
This belongs in Health and Recovery imo…
True I always get confused between the two categories, because the “unusual beliefs” were part of the reason I wasn’t myself before. But now it should be in health and recovery you are right.
I am astounded at how much you seem to be progressing lately, BigJon.
Do you attribute your recent improvements to your going to therapy hours?
Could play an impact my friend showed me a study that starting real therapy can lead to delusions going away. Well whatever reason I have overcome the delusions, I am grateful for it!! I also quit drinking I have drank once in the last 70+ days now probably.
I went ahead and moved it to health and recovery for you.
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