I believe my mum will die in 2020 age 77.
my sister in 2030 aged 51.
Me in 2040 aged 66
and my husband in 2050 aged 79
it is the right order
mum will not see another daughter die young and my husband is best at coping than anyone at all in my family
but my sister has taken less care of herself and may now not really last in to old age
I will last a bit longer but i have a while - a few years - but i think i killed myself with smoking before i learned to stop hating myself
and my husband although diabetic by then i suppose - his father is still alive age 85 and his mother also. he will be the last. This is horrible for him but how would I cope if it was him first!!
i don’t know when my father will die but i have always known i will be the last in my family
i have my husband and will be taken care of by him and with each other.
I don’t know why i wanted to write down the numbers It is a guess based on quality of health now and future indicators
it’s made me feel better in the way that it is a safety net - to put a number to things No one can be certain about.
but worse because it is so finite.
I believe i was given 10 000 days to mourn my middle sister and that I would follow after 10 000 days
this is left over from my second 9 month long delusional state
I believe my family members will all die when their hearts stop beating and rigor mortis sets in, I don’t like this topic now but remember when i might have said it so I will not condemn you for writing it but i hope you reach the point where you focus on something else.
I have no idea when I or any of my family members will die. I thought my sister would be dead five years ago and here she is still kickin. (She has terminal cancer but she’s been in remission for the last eleven years). I’m sure it’s all the prayers.