I apologise

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Ill make a separate thread for my apology. I wrote this a couple minutes ago. On a separate thread.

I don’t even understand half the stuff I write on here. Half the time I’m not even stable, I have something called emotional dysregulation. But that remeron made me a miserable mess and I was getting vivid dreams so bad. Like feeling carpenter nails in my foot and picking them out, feeling the pain until every one was out. Then the devil kept trying to wake me up. I was living in a week and a half of relapse symptoms. I’m glad I’m off it now because it didn’t touch my insomnia. Plus the higher dose of the injection I got prescribed a week and a half ago had to work through my system. I was starting to relapse before the higher dose. Now it’s controlling stuff in a good way and I feel like I was in a very bad place posting stuff on here. Now I’m really clear. I don’t do drugs or drink either. This is all the nature of SZ. I apologize,people. I was out of hand. You guys are all good people, and I’m not like this. The devil controls me when I have sz symptoms, or not medicated right. I lost a lot of friendships due to this.

I hope everyone has/had a good day!

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accepted.

I believe there can be some evil forces, but no actual devil.

you’re alright, don’t give an imaginary thing any power over you.

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I’d like to apologize for painter pants, acid wash jeans and Menudo during the 1980’s.

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You don’t have anything to apologize for. This is a place for help and support.

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The support on here is tremendous. Thank you!

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I’ll try not to, thanks for giving me another perspective

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You dont have anything to apologize for. I think many people on this site have been where you were. While every story is different we all know the struggle and you’re not in this alone.

I’m glad your symptoms are getting better.

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Thank you! I have to stay positive, and not let negativity drag me down.

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From what I’ve seen, you haven’t done anything wrong. No need to apologize for anything.

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No, I know I did. I was very bitter towards my life, and wasn’t open minded, lost site of the good. I kept on complaining, and couldn’t offer anyone anything healthy advice, and I would see some posts on sz, and automatically think of the worse and say crazy stuff about going off meds, or feel like I’m really cognitively declining, and show my anger more in a passive manner. My bad vibes were shedding onto other people now that I look back. I did that to other friends in the past, and it made them afraid of me and walk away (that is why I mentioned evil) there is so much more good that can be found out of things and my mind kept on going to the negatives because I couldn’t focus and felt really down

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Well the important thing is that you forgive yourself and forget.

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Yeah but I also have to put it in the books, and learn from it.

It was hard to think clear and I appreciate everyone holding back their thoughts on me because you guys all really understand

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@Winterblues I’m having a bad day…don’t sweat it. People on here are amazing!

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Thanks, I hope your bad day doesn’t last long, and I know i can’t say a bad thing about anyone on here, this is a really safe place to go to

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Look. You didn’t PM anyone a picture of you naked in a lawn chair with a shotgun…so just relax. :wink:

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@Winterblues thanks. I have to walk somewhere to get help with the electric bill. I have trouble leaving home, agoraphobia as well as the rest. I’m gonna do it!

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Hahaha, guess it can be worse :joy:

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@JustTrish I have faith you will. Good luck with getting your electric bill straightened out. It’ll be worth it once you get the help!

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