I dont know what i have now. I am not able to explain what i am going through. All i have is pain and irritation in mind. Whatever i do for living normal does not seem to fit me. All i want is to live alone and not be cared. Is there a way i can live alone without money? I am in India. Any suggestions are welcome.
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i have a hard time responding to your post, i don’t know exactly what is going on in your life right now…
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That’s a situation I’ve recently been tempted by.
I wanted to start camping… there is actually a lot of open land in kansas… some lakes have free campsites and I could probably cycle around in them.
I’m likely not the first person to have that idea though… and I’m assuming I’d run into real conflict out there…
It’s not a wise decision man… it’d be you in total isolation, against the physical elements of the world, and against the internal elements of your mental health.
In your region specifically, I can see how things would be particularly tough… but from the outside it seems that there are stronger families… I guarantee you it’d be the lesser of two evils in the end to fight through the life you have been given over there.
There are opportunities in the future for things to change.
If you are confused… prioritize taking in the wisdom that comes your way. You might find new insights that help cast light on the shadows that are keeping you from knowing peace.
Good luck! We’re always on here.
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I am living with no physical or emotional response. I am not able to express my issues. I am totally blacked out. There is lot of issues going on inside me. For that the solution would be to be free of them if i dont get in touch with the external world. I would love to stay at home for as long as i can and be away from others. So that no one would interfere with me. I want to live alone and read books. Nothing else.
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what about your wife and child? how are they doing?
I’d get some books and find quiet places…
Also I’d at least try to write out your issues if you can’t coordinate talking about it…
If you are seeing things… write it on there…
Let whoever can get you medical attention know…
Don’t be afraid of the doctors… Treating schizophrenia is still an approximate science. Trust that the medical experts around are going to be your best bet… and if you aren’t happy with them there are always more in the world.
This site has been up for years and it is home to many sufferers just like you… We always appreciate more company.
Take care… Good luck…
Reading is a good choice… if you can find the structure inside to read… you probably have a good chance at getting a lot of life back!
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They are doing fine. They will be struggling a bit. But my wife will be able to take care of him. I suppose. Thats the downside of my thinking. But i dont know what else to do now. I am not able to think big. All i can do is one task on a whole. Hope my wife will be able to take care of my son properly without my assistance.
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as long as they’re okay i think you can take some time off, the illness can really consume you mentally sometimes
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as for the money thing, are you still able to work? i thought you used to say you had to work to support your family?
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yes i do work. I am supporting my family by working. I am not working to my potential or i do not have the potential to think big and achieve big. So i am worried that i might not be able to continue working for long time. since it requires lot of mental abilities.
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Thanks for the suggestion. I am writing things to let my pdoc know about what i am facing. But problem is i am not facing the same problem each time. It ranges from symptom to symptom.
I am here because there are lot of good people who care and help. I get help as required. But only thing that is missing is i dont know if i will be able to get care if i am not able to work. That is my core issue. Most people dont agree that i cant work. But i am so ill that i am not able to work.
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Open with that…
These are things I’ve experienced over time.
That sounds like psychosis man… Mine was very dynamic for a long time.
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Sure does. I am experiencing pschosis for sure. I am not able to speak clearly, do things properly, etc…
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I’m sure a psychiatric doctor will understand.
I’m sorry you are struggling mate. I do think there is a good amount of recovery ahead of you.
That disorganization can pass with decent medication and a stable routine.
As a fellow sufferer I’d advise physical exercise routine… Even just stretching or yoga…
It can hone that sense of physical control. Reading can keep the mind sharp.
Communication is the difficult one… But talking can help keep a gauge on how on top of the illness you are.
A good conversation with someone has always done a lot to restore my sense that I’m not losing it. Those friends are rare though. Spoken conversation that is.
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I have decent medicine. I am yet to find a routine that helps. I need to do certain excercises. The problem i have is i am not able to think. Its always confusing. I am having hard time conveying, asking, explaining, emoting things. Reading also makes me get confused and i dont remember things so well.
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Take your time with it… the difficulty will pay off.
Sometimes my mind will start trying to spin and I tell myself to muscle through it. Retention is a learned skill, just be vigilant about it.
Living alone and being left alone to read books was my lifelong dream as a young woman,and I am living that dream right now. You Know Who has been good to me.
How did you do that? I am amazed. I would like to live that dream myself. Who has been good to you? But i am also trying to do that now by reading whatever piece of information that i can read.
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