I am so damn tired of the nightmares

Does anyone else get nightmares related to the content of their psychosis? Even though I really don’t get symptoms anymore I still have nightmares that are basically exact replays of what happens with my symptoms except more intense. I end up getting raped by demons and constantly harassed to give myself to the devil. These dreams are always so bizarre and feel so different from normal dreams in that I have physical sensation and I’m always in the same room I fell asleep in and it feels more like an out of body experience.

I want them to stop but I have no idea how to stop them. I do not get them at night when I sleep, I solely get them if I sleep once the sun is up. I feel like i cannot escape my psychosis and I keep getting retraumatized by these dreams.

Something that helped me with nightmares is to write them down and keep a diary. You will see some things that repeat themselves.
I believe that our dreams are trying to tell us something deep inside our subconscious that we refuse to believe.

I sometimes get dreams I’m having psychosis.

Do you come from a religious background?

Since you believe in demons and stuff…

Nope. My parents are “casual catholics”. We go to church on holidays and that’s about it. We don’t really talk about religion or anything at my house.

I don’t even consider myself religious because I don’t follow any religion, I have my own spiritual belief system based off of my experiences.

when i got sedated during my hospitalization i got alot of nightmares related to my psychosis but then it stopped they were so weird and vivid.

It is just so frustrating. I have gotten this nightmare for years but usually it was just on occasion. For the past several weeks I have been having it every. Single. Day.

I see.
I remember some of your older posts, you talk about “Father” speaking to you occasionally in dreams. And also demons upon demons.

I think maybe you’ve read/watched some religious or supernatural books/movies when you were very young and impressionable.

I have definitely always had interest in the occult and paranormal since I was little. I experimented with it in my teens and thats when everything exploded in my face.

However the reason why I had an interest in it from the time i was young was because of my weird experiences. I had the weird experiences before I even knew what things like paranormal or occult was. By the time I was 2 I was telling my mom I was scared to sleep in my room because there were ghosts there.

I welcome psychosis, I got used to it. It’s my neighbors who are the nightmare.

Well aren’t you lucky. Turns out getting raped and verbally abused by demons on a regular basis is a hard thing to “get used to” and “welcome”.

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I don’t see why you’re mad at me. My answer was about me and my neighbors, not you.

Your post came off as insensitive. I was posting about my struggles and you came onto my post and commented about how psychosis wasn’t a problem for you. So again good for you, but maybe not the best response to someone who is struggling.

Are you in therapy? Sounds like PTSD type dreams. Not much you can do but intense therapy for the rest of forever.

Yes I am sure that is what it is. Unfortunately while I may be recovered from my depression and psychosis my ptsd still tends to flare up whenever it wishes. I have been to trauma therapy. It is hard to overcome a trauma when it still happens.

Medication stops the abuse but there are those times when I forget to refill on time and miss a few days of my med and I get attacked. And then those nightmares…i can’t seem to stop them. I have even gone on meds for nightmares before and they didn’t work.

Yeah, I’m still in therapy for my PTSD from over a decade ago. 🤷

I keep thinking I’m over it and then some minor thing happens and it’s like I’m at step one all over again. It’s infuriating.

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Yeah, you should get back in therapy.

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I actually started back in therapy recently. Not for trauma but for dealing with general life stressors. But i will definitely bring it up at my next appointment thanks.

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I just had a nightmare today, I was drowning in the middle of the ocean. Its my most common nightmare.