When I start thinking about strange and complex things…I start to get sort of crazed…and my chest becomes tight and my thoughts start swirling. Things like when I contemplate reality or morality or the past. What is this feeling? Bewilderment? Confusion? Pain? I’m not sure. I can’t wrap my head around it but that’s how I’m feeling now, like I’ve been sent reeling. The feeling of falling off a cliff into the unknown.
"We’re constantly rationalizing to “make” sense of what we see. This is kind of a paradox isn’t it? How is it that you need to “make” sense to make something real? Is rational thought maybe not its own illusion? That you think that because you think - because you’ve rationalized something - that it MUST be true? How can something - if it is true - need your input of “sense” making? Maybe it could be said that the input or rather the thing that is doing the inputting is what is real? "
Wrote this out long ago and only now when I’m reading it , it seems to make sense!
No it doesn’t “seem” to … it does?
Stressful bewilderment of unknown uncertainty. I get it too. Like the world is swirling in a forward motion to me. It’s weird and gets me anxious about a lot of things. Your not alone 
I can’t make sense of anything. I am so confused and stressed about my experiences.
Well that’s why I said what I had said.
If you read it right… it can slow things down. Or maybe it’s just how I’m feeling lately.
It’s like a 2d person who lives in a 2d world suddenly becomes 3D for a while…and even when they return to 2d can still occasionally see in 3D…this person would have no way of understanding what they just experienced…wouldn’t have words for it…couldn’t explain it to others because most hadn’t dealt with that…just left with endless questions and bewilderment.
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If you can see in 4d what are the winning lotto numbers. Anyway is it anything like racing thoughts?
That was just a metaphor. My actual situation is a lot more…obscure. I’m not going into it because I have no desire of possibly setting off anyone’s delusional thinking.
It feels like my brain is a computer trying to solve an equation but it doesn’t have the computing power so it starts making all those whirring clanking noises and shoots out sparks and then finally short circuits completely and I have to “reboot.” That’s pretty much exactly what it feels like.
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For me it generally goes one of two ways - either I get a warm, safe, floaty feeling as I move from idea to idea with no clear idea of the previous step or the next step, or I have kind of an overwhelmed, frantic feeling as the whole concept moves through my brain and I try to encompass it all at once. It’s like an unsteady, transient epiphany.
Yes for me it’s the second one all the time and it’s just too much for me.
Sounds like anxiety