I don’t think I have any mental illnesses even though I have a long colorful psych history in my file. I have been diagnosed with sz and anxiety and ADHD by many drs and many times too. But I still can’t trust drs or believe drs. I am probably just physically used to taking the meds at this point out of habit? A non mentally ill person should not be taking antipsychotic meds.
What would you do in my shoes?
I can’t sleep for some reason tonight
Its good to get things off your chest
Try writing down a list of how you are each day and then talk to your doctor if you still think theres nothing wrong with you and you don’t need meds. But keeping a journal will definitely help
I would stop and think three things:
One, if I was you and have a history of mental illness and you’ve been hospitalized and seen a doctor who prescribed medication, then I would tell myself that I didn’t dream all that or imagine all that, and I wasn’t faking, so I really have a mental illness.
Two, if you’ve been on this forum a significant amount of time then you see other people who have thought the same thing and by their history, they are wrong; that is, they are really mentally ill and you are just going through a common problem with schizophrenics who doubt their own illness despite good evidence to the contrary.
Three, I would acknowledge that I probably only feel like I’m not mentally ill because the medication is working and if I stop taking it I will probably relapse and it won’t be pretty.
I would look at these three things and think: "OK, maybe when I’m telling myself I’m not mentally ill it’s just wishful thinking and I’m just fooling myself.
If you weren’t sz you’d probably get serious issues with the meds. It’s usually a good sign your sz because the antipsychotics help you…and I would put money on the fact that they do.
It’s not an uncommon thought around even here.
If you have been diagnosed with sz by multiple docs the odds are in favor of you having sz.
Just saying
…yet you’re posting on a schizophrenia site.
Hmmmmm.
I get it, who wants to be sz, i really get that but can you say to yourself that you dont experience any symptoms?
Chances are if you experience symptoms & you are in denial then this could be a bit of lack of insight into your illness.
If you have been symptom free for a while either the med is doung its job or you are in remission.
I hope you are in remission.
Hey. We do not know you. So we don’t know whether you are schizophrenic and what to do. I disagree with some of the above. Docs can be wrong. And meds do cause serious issues in non-sz. That said…it’s difficult to see your own problems, if you are psychotic.
Fact: there is a problem, or you wouldn’t be stuck with all these docs and meds.
What concrete problems do your docs see? Delusions, seeing
things that others dont, etc?
What do you think are your problems? Why this record full of
mental illnesses if you are not ill?
You say the medication caused dependency. Can well be. But
you started the med one day. Why? What was the
reason?
Believing in the label doesn’t matter. As long as you do what
helps. What helps you stay stable and out of hospitals? And
fulfill the things you find important in life?
Ok. Thanks for the advice. That was helpful.
I think the meds are working well for me because I have not been forced into state hospitals or any hospitals for like 5 years. Which is really nice!!
I need to just trust the drs and keep taking the meds. I need to accept the fact that I have sz.
There’s nothing wrong with thinking critically for yourself. And questioning if the diagnosis and treatment fits you…or not. A doc is not God. They can be wrong. As long as you keep seeing that you (and I, and everyone) can be wrong too…and you don’t make decisions that harm yourself or others…feel free to ask questions.
Good that the meds are good for you. And help you be stable.
No one is mentally ill on this site, welcome aboard
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