Police officer that talked with me yesterday told me that I appear to be very intelligent, rational and think very clearly, that I could not be a risk to go to mental hospital, but this strange, because always plan to commit suicide by fantasies when I am depressed and that should be one red flag to go to mental hospital though.
Most of my hospital admissions were due to suicidal thoughts or self harm. When I’m more stable, I also appear normal and mild but I can get pretty sick off meds. If I don’t take meds I’d need hospital quite quickly.