I shouldn’t switch meds in the past. ive done it for 7 years. the aps dont work on me quite well. I should work a lot on my own, by myself. the meds are giving me just the energy to be on my feet and to eat and to succeed to sleep. I became stupid because of this illness, I have cognitive issues a lot and others…its a tough condition this thing. plus the fact, I am ill since child… ive done all this path being ill. ive never experienced happiness. and now ive decided to struggle but I am already 34 years old. and my tempo to deal with sz is reeal slow…I go out once in 10 days. nothing can push me to go outside when I am too ‘‘awaken’’ in my mind(anxious) or too paranoid. no way… I just cant do it.
I should learn even to talk now. but I ahev only my mother to whom talking and one ill friend…
how many years it will take me? and what if I succeed it when I am 40 years old for example? it will make 40 years of delusions and suffering… no children, no work, no hobbies, no friends, no contact with the nature…
maybe I should make my peace with the reality. for some schizophrenics, the life is just like mine… every day a suffering…
p.s. I hated my last pdoc who was telling to my mom in my back that i’ll always suffer…
I wish you peace in your life and good health in the future. I am suffering too and I hold onto the hope that they will have better treatment for this illness someday soon. My doctor told me that it’s possible that in the next 5 to 10 years they will have something so hang in there you’re still young
I really feel sorry for you, a bad psychiatrist can ruin your condition so much. If you can look for a better one, my mother is a doctor and she got me a psychiatrist who is open minded and willing to try new things. He also has the patient’s best interest at heart and wants to minimize side effects. I really can’t say enough good things about him, he is perfect, smart and has empathy. You need a positive treatment team to get over what you are going through. A med change may be in order, med changes can alter your condition a lot. Be open to newer meds with less side effects, try everything you can and see how much your condition changes.
I feel ur pain. It’s good u got ur mom, I can’t tollerate being around ppl, even with my mom i cant for long. U have found ur strength somehow through all these years, i have found mine as well, but it never stops hurting(maybe not for u tho)
I cant try everything which is on the market @eduvigis, I am not a guinea pig… ive tried almost every antipsychotic on the market… and I saw a lots of pdocs who told me that there is no miracle drug… I am so ■■■■■■■ angry right now, I couldn’t sleep because I think too much in the day and cant activate myself to get more tired… I am in a vicious circle and its like this since 20 years… I just pray that meds will start working maybe after a year or something like this…