We called my doctor because I’m not doing well at all. Thankfully, we set up an appointment with him tomorrow morning.
Basically, I feel like I’m sliping into psychosis again. I have this strange feeling before every relapse that I feel myself encroaching a state of psychosis again. I’ve had this peculiar feeling all week, but no symptoms up until now. I’ve also been more acrimonious lately, which is a sign of doing unwell. I got these symptoms in the latter half of the day causing me great feelings of chagrin and discomfort. I’ve been hallucinating, visual and audio, and also having a substantial amount of suicidal depression, to which I feel death is better than my life and lack of goals.
We think it might be because of getting off risperdal too fast, being inconsistent with a strong antihistamine, and stress from work and other areas like losing fat.
Frankly, I don’t know if I was acting with a clear conscious when I asked the girl out. Now she thinks I got the feeling from down under for her lol. Oh well, she is cute.