Try not to be a bad person lol, but yep you just have delusions.
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I used to think i was the center of a cruel joke and no one would confirm that they were seeing me and would talk about me behind my back. It is schitzophrenia i suffer the same, meds do help and make the voices go away and you no longer feel like your being watched. Sometimes i get off my meds to imagine im messing with people and give them a show to watch. lol if God gave me this gift i might as well find a way to enjoy it right.
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That’s true. I believe I’m in the center of a cruel joke. I believe everyone knows I’m being broadcasted all over the country but doesnt want to tell me.
What to do when you hear people talking negatively about you but you cant find a camera anywhere? Can my mind really do that? I hear them saying things out of their mouths. Is there technology that advanced that can be implanted? I need help. How can the people behind tv broadcast my thoughts so fast? Everytime I think they comment. How can people see me? I dont know where there is a camera is implanted in me.
I know I shouldn’t care, but everyone deserves their privacy. Its not right. Im tired of being the center of the universe. Everyone is watching me and taunting me. I haven’t been talked about so much lately. I haven’t been talked about that much on tv but I wonder when it’s going to start back up. I’m the first in history to be broadcasted all over the tv directly. The commercials and tv shows had voice overs about me. They were talking about me. This has never happened to anyone else. Why me? I’m trying to stay strong but why would Donald Trump and everyone else allow something like this to happen? I’m just so afraid.
when can you see your doctor?
I talk to her next Tuesday.
Okay try to stay calm until then… remember it isn’t real.
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Ok thankyou I will try.
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I find meditation and expanding my aura helps.
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I’m really not into that kind of stuff. Thankyou anyway.
I went through a phase early 2019 where I thought the same thing. It was when my schizophrenia first set in and I had a couple of break downs. I went to the mental hospital a couple of times and at first I was coming up with every they in the book and then some. I thought the music on the radio was about me I thought movies were connected to everything I was going through and it wasn’t easy but after about 6 months after being diagnosed I started to slowly find myself back in reality but everyday from the moment I wake up to the moment I go to bed and even sometimes in my sleep my voices tell me that “everyone is laughing at you” “go home” “leave already” “nobody cares about you” I recently started writing down all the things my voices say to me on a daily and it helped me realize that there’s no actual people or persons in my head. Its repetitive and annoying but it helped me realize that a lot of the things I went through had the same repetitive phrases and dialogue. It’s your own brain that connects your thoughts and emotions to what you are hearing. If I have a thought and suddenly hear something I simply remind myself that I’ve heard it before and it’s not true. For me my voices tell me I have to “run home” by running a marathon. At first I was training and trying to “just leave” (whatever that means) all the while trying to figure out what was happening to me and theorizing everything. I thought people knew things or were doing things based on my mental thinking. Now I honestly have quit my marathon training because it became exhausting. Even on good days the voices would taunt and mock me or keep telling me to run. I will slowly try and go back to normality and basic excercises but I’m not interested in running a marathon and I know it won’t change anything. Nobody is watching you or listening to you. My biggest advice is to try and recognize your mental patterns and those of your voices. Its helping me allot even on bad days and believe me I still have hella bad days. 
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Thankyou so much. That really helped. I am starting to realize the thought patterns.
Your post helped me, too. If other sz’s think music is about them, how can it be all about me (with everyone knowing its about me)?
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I tried socratic questioning about matrix theory, but elon musk and others ruined it when it went mainstream. It just got stronger man. Started believing it and getting obsessed and started thinking I saw it, escaped it, and ran some of it temporarily. Then I started seeing aliens and ufos and crap.
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I thought everyone could see me through my tv. I also thought everyone could hear my thoughts. I thought radio songs were about me. With the right meds and time I don’t have those delusions anymore. I thought Trump was out to get me, watching the news scared the ■■■■ out of me.
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Omg. That is exactly what is happening to me. How long did it take for it to go away? To have a sense of normalcy?
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@pasteyface, @LJFM did you guys ever think songs 2009-present were WRITTEN about you? If so, which ones?
It took one hospitalization, meds, and about a month to realize that the songs are just songs. Just cause it may relate to me doesn’t mean it’s about me.
And to answer you question. I thought every song on Spotify was about me. Didn’t matter what era the song was from.
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It’s all about perspective. Of course we think everything is about us because the whole point of music is to be relatable and comforting the only thing that changes is the negative thoughts coursing through your brain whether it be the voices themselves or your reaction to what they are saying. Instead of seeing it as people talking about you or writing about you, realize that it’s just your personal perspective
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