Hey guys, ive been thinking and ive come to the co clusion that i dont like people that much anymore. Its basically due to feeling pain whenever i interact with them irl. Over the years ive grown to see humanity from a very negative angle.
How did you guys who fwlt persecuted and cast out not become bitter and negative?
I realize that when im not having painful interactions with pwople or dealing with symptoms im pretty happy and positive , so i know its in me. But how do you guys stay ok with people even when its painful?
I was actually just thinking something similar. When i was young interacting with people was always easy and i had very few conflicts or negative interactions. I realize now that it was because i was very unaware as a young person. The older i get i see the games and all the difficulties in dealing with people.
I have become more selective but i am very bitter and negative because of everything. My therapist thinks i need to get out and see people are kind but all i feel is pain dealing with them
Yea.. its rough man. Unlike you ive been kind of a ■■■■■■■ the furst half of my life but i still dont think ita fair to be mistreated. It has to be even worse being mistreated for no reason thats even more fu cked up..
Maybe there’s less than 0.007% true beauts that are worthy of one and that don’t set up , bully , r slave , traffick , steal from , jealous, etc
That have things like loyalty n truth n know real you n authenticity care n enjoy your company whether you rich or poor but for who you are even when “ they stole “ who you are kinda they still loyal to little that’s left such as holy flesh body …suffering n drained n so ..
It’s tragic when you see whole countries were part of cruelty to you and all your life was set up and disgusting putrid stuff they did and agony they caused .
One must try keep faith that there are still real ones worthy ones and even if you don’t have them around you try keep the faith .
When they lie so deeply n are so fake that even their dogs smd horses n nature n so forth is fake n nasty n stolen n lies etc
Tragic !
I’m devastated!
Sometimes it is too much to deal with realising that pretty much everyone was “in on it “ and that you don’t get to exist as yourself in your real body because they want to be uou n feel like you n have your riches because you feel good n are love n so but in their hands it’s not grace or pure not even your energy is so in their hands is fake n disgusting.
Also most Hollywood people are horrible horrible people and not admirable at all but quiet the opposite sex traffickers pedos keeping spaces yhey energy harvest n steal energy n light n aura n education n eye time work n chemistry etc from .
May I keep the faith if a better truer purer holier beings to and for me who let me be real me and give me back my self in real flesh and give a fck authenticity etc
Ones made to look perfect and feel perfect on stolen from someone else they stole their essence n energy n eye time work etc are often the most evil and fake and stealing energy n I n stuff n sometimes hated by seemingly everyone only real true beaut .
Yeah it’s tough. Changes in worldview can happen with age though. Personally I’m feeling a shift in how I view people compared to some years ago. Not so much about liking people better, but more about seeing through them, and realize there’s nothing special about them. Why should I care about them, they’re just people, no need to idolize or put them on a pedestal.
I don’t think most people are kind, but most are not evil, either. Most seem to be out for themselves first and those who care about others deeply aren’t as common as they should be.
I kinda stopped worrying about death. And fearing people. I used to fear people would slap me or something. Shoot me or take me hostage. I kinda stopped worrying about suffering from any other person whatsoever they can do to cause me suffering. Weather to me personally or anything done to me because of what I am a part of. I stopped fearing myself also. What I will get myself into with association with others. I trust myself where I thought before I would get into trouble with others through sex and drugs.
I go through the motions of being polite and kind to everyone, friends, family, and strangers alike, through words, actions and financial gifts, as my spirituality demands of me.
What my spirituality doesn’t demand of me is the ‘emotion’ of love toward people. Which is fortunate because I have little to give.
My disdain for people is born of a lifetime of severe mistreatment at the hands of people. Beginning with my parents. @signless@Dogslife@Moon@shutterbug
I would just start hitting the local jam session. Once you go there a couple of times, it will happen naturally imo: people will recognize you and say hi, then start a convo, share each other contacts, etc.
Thats pretty wise man..its actually cool because i just got done reading this book and it was talking about making peace with youself. I guess if you start to trust yourself you kinda make peace with yourself and others.
I feel ou skinny me… im not gonna front tho..ive been on both sides of the fence. Ive done alot of creating suffering and sufferrd alot. I just wish i didn’t have to be so negative all the time.
As far as people mistreating you including family..thats got to be really hard. Ive read some of your post and its unfortunate that stuff like that happens. Im glad you didn’t let it desteoy you tho
I did’nt. I use to be everybodys’ pal and I thought everybody were seeing life the way I do. Some real bad ■■■■ happened in my life. I had a paradigm shift and came to the realization that there is a good distribution of people and a bad/evil distribution.
But everybody is homosapiens and everyone goes to the grave so I’m not special but I choose with whom I interact
There’s more people that don’t like me than people I dislike. Because of experiences at boarding school-the bullying related trauma- I’m more fearful of other people than hateful.
thats even more fu cked up..