I keep feeling guilty about the fact that I am mentally ill and cannot work at the moment. I know I am not able to work right now but I keep thinking about what normies think about people like me, some of them think we are just lazy and want to avoid working.
Normies keep popping up in my head telling me I should have a job … or I hear my family, especially my Grandads, thinking “Why doesn’t she have a job? She doesn’t do anything.”
I go to recovery classes and next year I want to start volunteering as a peer supporter, so it’s not like I don’t want to do anything… Idk it’s just these ignorant people in my head telling me I am lazy and should be working now … everything just revolves around work for some people… but I need to recover more… but they think I’m not mentally ill or think I shouldn’t be.
This is true to some extent, our culture considers employment of any form to be an important part of being a respectable member of society. Its normal to feel guilty when you feel you are not living up to the expectations of respectable people in society.
It feels like a bunch of bull crap to get tacked on by feelings like this.
The planet has what… over 7 billion people and just a small amount of us ‘not working’ is too much to bear?
Must be something seriously wrong.
When I think of how a garden ‘works’ it’s certainly not the same as the way the ‘world’ does. It doesn’t have to really ‘work’ at all and yet it’s fine.
We should be given the time and support to just ‘get it together’ without the pointless pressure of the restlessness of the world that is never satisfied.
This bugs me too. Although it’s more often fear that motivates any action at all.
It got to the point where I was willing to take on a nearly full-time job (not enough hours to claim benefits from the company.), and nearly drive myself batty in the process. I just can’t do it. No amount of fear of how I will live when my supports crumble will be enough to get me back to work. I’d prefer to be self-sufficient, but negative symptoms and cognitive issues get in the way of self-employment, while delusions and frames of reference scare me out of working in public places among other people.
Plus I have a super spotty work record to where no company will hire me. I can only get an interview by telling them I’m disabled, but after that some other people will get picked. Understandable, I’d prolly leave them in the lurch anyways when my sluggishness and fear would tag team my brain into leaving the job.
I get it, I feel guilty about not being able to work but I don’t see myself as able to work. My doctor and therapist asked if there is a chance of me wanting to work again and told them honestly I would like to.
I get the same feeling, but the fact is that I can’t get even off my bed in my condition i got severe sz and its really something i wish my parents understood.