I have only read a small portion of my CBT books but I would think something like this might be helpful to you. Writing down the techniques involved would make for too lengthy of a post for here.
They do deal with negative thoughts in CBT though. If you can’t get a therapist to help you through them, maybe you can teach yourself to work through them. Just a suggestion that you might try.
I did 24 sessions of therapy and it didn’t even scratch the surface.
To be honest I think the therapist was rubbish
Might have to try and do this when I can find the motivation…
I just had a thought that I might make my desktop wall paper on my computer a collage of good photos of good things, and try to see them each day when I wake up and turn on my PC?
Yea. I keep thinking to myself, well I haven’t relapsed yet. I am always attentive to momments when I think I am hallucinating. It’s like I can’t just let go fully. It’s always there with me
i am also quite negative i am trying to train myself to focus on other things than those that drag me down. the mental energy i spend on my negative thoughts is astronomical i am exhausted from them. enough. gotta let it go.’
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