I was ready to fly interstate first flight to visit my x partner and the dogs before the old dog dies.
I told him I want to move back but he said he doesn’t want me back.
He is the best man I know.
I had a romance with another man I have sexual chemistry with.
Broke it off but we had sex again.
I love him but not as much or same as my partner I lived with who I choose but I left him after his dad had died to become vegan n give my horse a better life.
I regret leaving.
Best home I ever had n best relationship too.
I feel fragile and sad n emotional and just keep crying and mourning.
The passion guy makes me laugh n we have chemistry but he is trouble I think plus I am still inlove with my other x.
Well I slept all dang day. I was tired but it was mostly because I was bored and had nothing I really wanted to do. So I just slept to pass the time until my boyfriend got home.
Another pretty spectacular day. Had to deal with some vibe killers for about an hour other than that spectacular. I woke up after sleeping fifteen hrs. Was feeling really refreshed and energized. Had some chicken nuggets for dinner. The scale is showing me down in weight. Did a lot of praying and mindfulness practice. Looked at some tik toks and Facebook.
My day has been pretty swell. I drank a little tonight. Thought about business plans and mindfulness. Chilled out and relaxed. Overall not perfect and not horrible. I rate it about 7 out of 10. I got cheered up when I seen a cross on the ground. If you gotta suspend me for drinking or talking about cross I understand.
Please remember that other folk who are doing worse than you may read your stuff. Condoning or encouraging others to drink is a problem because there’s many here who suffer/have suffered with alcohol. Religion in itself can be a problem for people with delusions and I’m sure you can see why.
Be civil and supportive and all is cool- and avoid things that may trigger others.
Excuse me? They’re engaging in a risky close contact activity BECAUSE of COVID-19?!? That is all kinds of holy crap.
I barely made it through the work day, I think my pacemaker has stepped back its function to preserve remaining battery life. Ten days left until the replacement surgery. I’m trying to get ahold of the pacemaker clinic for guidance. I have so little energy now that thinking about having a nap exhausts me.