That’s so sad. I’m sorry you didn’t get your last phone call in with your Nana. I’m sorry for your loss.
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If I went to the hospital every time I thought about suicide I never would leave the place. I’ve carried a razor blade in my wallet for several years now, trying to work up enough nerve to kill myself. This guy I knew described it best when he said, “You go around thinking ‘I want to die’, but when the moment of truth comes, you say, ‘nah’.” I did take 4500 mg of Trazadone one time. I’d heard that was enough to kill you, but apparently, I am immune to any amount of Trazadone. I’ve visited a few near death sites on the internet, including those that were suicides. They say that suicide is no escape. You take your problems with you when you die, and they are a thousand times worse after a death by suicide. That, along with a couple of other things, keeps me from killing myself. However, there could be some developments that could occur in my life that I would certainly commit suicide if they happened.
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Hmmm I’ve only been actively suicidal (as in making plans for my death and intending to go through with it) twice. But I’ve been passively suicidal for basically the past 4 years with maybe some minor breaks from it. Passively meaning though I don’t actively plan on killing myself I just go around hoping something will happen and I’ll die and fantasizing about death or killing myself.
I’ve used the saying, “Heavens a party I haven’t received an invitation to yet.” Still waiting. 
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I don’t know how many times. I came close about 25 years ago, when I was 22 and too ill to know what I was doing. And last summer when I went through some heavy emotional/mood swings in my psychosis I went from basically euphoric to suicidal daily and each extreme mood would last hours. It was really freaking loopy there for a couple months till I got on meds
More times than I can count.
I am a suicide survivor.
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This many raises both hands spreads fingers and punches air three times I guess I’m glad I didn’t actually do it but somehow I feel my troubles aren’t over.
Lost count over the last few years. My dad, two friends committed suicide and my aunt died of skin cancer all in about a three to four year among a ton other stuff. Karen one of the friends that took her life is probably the catalyst in most of my suicidal thoughts over the last 6 years. Karen’s Anniversary will be 6 years now in Feb.
As my tdoc said they are just thoughts you don’t have to follow them. You also don’t have to deal with them alone phone counseling lines are 24/7 and so is the ER.
To add to this craziness, I was recharging a motorcycle battery in my apartment. It seemed to be fully charged due to it bubbling like crazy. I picked it up and then it exploded. None of it could be found except some plastic pieces of it which were stuck in the walls of the room surrounding me.The rest had vaporized.
The explosion was sooo loud that my ears were ringing for many many hours.
There was blood on my hands.
So I washed my hands and looked for injury. There was none.
Once again, explain this, because I can not.
Once again, I swear on my mothers grave, this is a true story.
Enough to land me in the psych ward over 25 times in less than 10 years. A couple of times in the ICU too.
Not in any way proud of that, but all I can say is thank my lucky stars I don’t even consider it anymore.
Wished this was true for my 25 year old nephew who finally succeeded last Oct. Miss him sooo much.
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let’s stick to suicides, not miracles ;p
I’ll make a thread for you. 
Yes, let’s ignore the big stuff and stick to the petty nothings.
I was in a continuous suicidal state for years in my 30’s and 40’s. I finally came out of it in my mid 40’s. I am completely happy and content today, largely thanks to my relationship with God. (I converted from hedonism to Catholicism at age 45). I attempted suicide twice in my mid 30’s. Once seriously and once not so seriously. What I mean by that is that once I called for help. The other time I did not. I fully intended to die. The story about how I was saved is truly bizarre.
Folks, please stick to just answering the question rather than giving graphic accounts of your attempts. I understand the urge to talk about it, but it is imperative that we be considerate of some of our more vulnerable members.
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To many times to count. My closest call was about six years ago when i took an overdose of lithium and other drugs. I don’t remember taking the pills and I woke in the icu. I did some damage to my kidneys.
I see the moderators removed the ABSOLUTE TRUTH.
They removed my post.
WHAT DOES THAT SAY ABOUT THEM ?
I removed your post because it was exceedingly graphic. Feel free to repost the essence of it without the details of your attempts. As I said, you must be respectful of our more vulnerable members.
Also, please stop picking fights in your posts.
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YOU removed the truth.
May the Gods treat you accordingly.
I gave more than my life to save others, KNOW THAT !
Take a break, @OTRA. When you come back, please try to be more considerate.